I'm not exactly Queen material. But the feelings of intimacy I have after being fucked, I just want to do for the Top I'm with. One thing I forgot to mention. My last, or he might even my current Top, lost his partner 10 years ago, and I think he's gun shy, even though we basically get on very well. I guess he doesn't want to experience losing another partner is why, he doesn't want me to be too chummy. I think possibly after some certain behaviors I've noticed in him, that I'll probably will not be seeing him much longer, if at all, after this weekend. I met other gay men, who also lost their partners, some 10-20 years prior, and they're still not over them, enough to move on to something else. So in one way, I guess I'm lucky. My preference is to be with a very hung top, and to cater to his needs, wants, desires. I'm just a caring person, and I've always been that way, I can't seem to change that about myself.