Okay, first of all, i know nothing about his dicksize. What this is about is the permanent attempt of my brain to torture me with pictures. Does any one of you know these constant attacks from the inside?
To make it more clearly: saw my ex with her new man yesterday (gues its her new man, cause they hold hands). Hit me like a train, even so i have tried to prepare myself for this moment.
No chance!!! Alsways hits hard doesn't matter how hard you fought against it.
Would be interesting why the dicksize of her new "lover" is important, of course thats not mature thinking, but many of my emotions of the moment are not those of an adult.
So i live with stupid and hurting thoughts for month now.
Would be interesting what the psychoanalysis or other psychological schools would tell me about it. Bigger dick - better lover? I defy, that i dont think like that.
Or does it hurt too much to think about: better person, better everything and bigger dick is easier?
Even the thinking of better is totally stupid and again: not the thinking and feeling of an adult. I think my younger me (thats how i call a character representing my teenage-me)is hurted the most and not so much thinking about love, taking care, and stuff like that.
I compared myself to other men my whole life. Even if i don't know anything about them my brain knows everything (it tells me). Emotions vs mind, a play i play every day after she broke up.
So, if any one has an idea how to stop the torturing please help. It's fresh and i think it can be stopped.
You can share any idea you have with me, i am a very open person when it comes to honest words.
Thx a lot in advance.
Hope you understood what i wanted so tell you.
Again: never saw his dick, did not talk to her about it (cause i don't talk to her for a month or so) its pure attacking from the inside. Psychological warfare!
I am in a recovering period at the moment so every spark of light might light a fire that burns the bad things (yeah, i do not lose hope)!
Hope i do not soudn like a victim i dont want to sound to whiny just try to express my feelings.(it's difficult enough in english)
To make it more clearly: saw my ex with her new man yesterday (gues its her new man, cause they hold hands). Hit me like a train, even so i have tried to prepare myself for this moment.
No chance!!! Alsways hits hard doesn't matter how hard you fought against it.
Would be interesting why the dicksize of her new "lover" is important, of course thats not mature thinking, but many of my emotions of the moment are not those of an adult.
So i live with stupid and hurting thoughts for month now.
Would be interesting what the psychoanalysis or other psychological schools would tell me about it. Bigger dick - better lover? I defy, that i dont think like that.
Or does it hurt too much to think about: better person, better everything and bigger dick is easier?
Even the thinking of better is totally stupid and again: not the thinking and feeling of an adult. I think my younger me (thats how i call a character representing my teenage-me)is hurted the most and not so much thinking about love, taking care, and stuff like that.
I compared myself to other men my whole life. Even if i don't know anything about them my brain knows everything (it tells me). Emotions vs mind, a play i play every day after she broke up.
So, if any one has an idea how to stop the torturing please help. It's fresh and i think it can be stopped.
You can share any idea you have with me, i am a very open person when it comes to honest words.
Thx a lot in advance.
Hope you understood what i wanted so tell you.
Again: never saw his dick, did not talk to her about it (cause i don't talk to her for a month or so) its pure attacking from the inside. Psychological warfare!
I am in a recovering period at the moment so every spark of light might light a fire that burns the bad things (yeah, i do not lose hope)!
Hope i do not soudn like a victim i dont want to sound to whiny just try to express my feelings.(it's difficult enough in english)