Ok, so I have this "straight" best friend named "Donny," known each other since early high school now in our mid 20s. Donny is kinda like that typical frat douchebag but he has a nice side, lol. He is generally super straight and no one would have any inclination otherwise. I'm not out but I think most of my closest friends, who are all straight, have an idea for what team I'm batting for.
Donny and I, we do everything together. There's literally not a day goes by that we don't see each other or have some sort of contact with one another. Our group of friends all suspect that there is some sort of relationship between Donny and me because of the way we act towards one another.
And it gets to that: the way we act towards each other is legit like we're a couple. And I never truly realized I had real feelings for him until he came back from college just a little over a year ago. The way we look at each other, the way he treats me isn't like with any of our other guy friends. There are countless times that after walking home drunk from the bar, he would just put his arm around me and we'd walk the rest of the way home like that (how romantic), and we'd kiss a couple times (in public nonetheless) but not too heavy. I remember when I really started to question his sexuality was when we were super drunk wrestling (I had my shirt off), he pinned me down on my stomach and out of NOWHERE he started making out with my back. There are MANY other instances.
Since it's been a over a year since I realized my feelings, our relationship is on a pretty good track (despite having drunk fought multiple times like we're a couple). But whenever I'd try to get really close to him, he'd accuse me of being gay (true) and push me away although we already act super gay with each other. And it's funny because he's usually the one that would initiate any sort of gay act towards me and I'd accept it but when I do it, he'd push me away.
Here comes the TWIST: so one of my other friends, who highly suspects of our being in a relationship, is super NOSY. Donny was sleeping at the time. So Nosy starts to look through Donny's phone and whatnot and since I was really drunk, I looked along with him (I usually hate it when people do this but it was a one-time thing lol). In Donny's emails were about 90% M4M craiglist ads and responses. A lot of them had to do with Donny wanting to "ride cocks" of various guys or his favorite (since they're a lot of it), getting a couple guys together to "blow your load all over my face." I just find it funny since I'm literally with Donny most of our waking moment other than work obviously, so I really don't know how he finds the time. But I guess if you're horny, ANYONE would find the time, lol.
My question is: I've made it clear to Donny that I've wanted him in more ways than one. Why doesn't he respond accordingly, especially since it's quite clear that he likes guys too? The way he looks at me, I can honestly feel it in my heart that he feels the same way about me.
Sorry for this wall of text. But I'm getting kind of desperate at this moment.


Donny and I, we do everything together. There's literally not a day goes by that we don't see each other or have some sort of contact with one another. Our group of friends all suspect that there is some sort of relationship between Donny and me because of the way we act towards one another.
And it gets to that: the way we act towards each other is legit like we're a couple. And I never truly realized I had real feelings for him until he came back from college just a little over a year ago. The way we look at each other, the way he treats me isn't like with any of our other guy friends. There are countless times that after walking home drunk from the bar, he would just put his arm around me and we'd walk the rest of the way home like that (how romantic), and we'd kiss a couple times (in public nonetheless) but not too heavy. I remember when I really started to question his sexuality was when we were super drunk wrestling (I had my shirt off), he pinned me down on my stomach and out of NOWHERE he started making out with my back. There are MANY other instances.
Since it's been a over a year since I realized my feelings, our relationship is on a pretty good track (despite having drunk fought multiple times like we're a couple). But whenever I'd try to get really close to him, he'd accuse me of being gay (true) and push me away although we already act super gay with each other. And it's funny because he's usually the one that would initiate any sort of gay act towards me and I'd accept it but when I do it, he'd push me away.
Here comes the TWIST: so one of my other friends, who highly suspects of our being in a relationship, is super NOSY. Donny was sleeping at the time. So Nosy starts to look through Donny's phone and whatnot and since I was really drunk, I looked along with him (I usually hate it when people do this but it was a one-time thing lol). In Donny's emails were about 90% M4M craiglist ads and responses. A lot of them had to do with Donny wanting to "ride cocks" of various guys or his favorite (since they're a lot of it), getting a couple guys together to "blow your load all over my face." I just find it funny since I'm literally with Donny most of our waking moment other than work obviously, so I really don't know how he finds the time. But I guess if you're horny, ANYONE would find the time, lol.
My question is: I've made it clear to Donny that I've wanted him in more ways than one. Why doesn't he respond accordingly, especially since it's quite clear that he likes guys too? The way he looks at me, I can honestly feel it in my heart that he feels the same way about me.
Sorry for this wall of text. But I'm getting kind of desperate at this moment.