When I was still a teenager, my friend and I started doing some playful, kinky stuff. It started with some "wrestling" where he'd pin me down (straddle my chest) in his underwear. He liked pressing his penis on my face. I still remember his balls on my face and this thighs around my face. Then we did some other stuff like me sitting on his face, and even me coming on his face. I never sucked him nor did he suck me. We both grew up. I got married and had kids. He had relationships with other men. Decades later, it remains an unfulfilled fantasy...I so much wish I had sucked his cock. Seeing him now is not possible. So, like a lot of other guys...I really, really want to suck a mans cock but never have. The concerns are the typical ones...catching something, betraying my wife (who is great), and so on. Also it looks like most of the ads are of men like me who want to suck, rather than get sucked. I really want to suck a well hung good looking guy's cock. Nothing out of the ordinary here. The kind of guy I'd want is likely out of my league. Wondering what the best option is.