JustAsking
Sexy Member
QI,
That is one of the most amazing OPs I have read in a long time. I am quite in awe of your ability to articulate something as subtle as this so beautifully.
I have to say that ironically, you seem to be quite "unconfused" about your gender confusion. Either it is true, or you have convinced yourself enough to convince me that your gender confusion is biological and not a psychological thing. Forgive me if I am reading something into what you said, but you certainly convinced me of it. Your clarity about that might be more than most people's clarity about their sexual identity.
So, briefly, what I am saying is that you are seem very unconfused about the source of your gender confusion. If this is true, then my opinion is that your gender ambiguity is 'normal'. And by 'normal' I don't mean typical, but that it is a necessary consequence of your biology.
Given that, you might be able to just relax and not be too concerned about the fact of it and devote your energies to figuring out what it might mean for you as you live out your life. You will have to discern who might be good role models for you out of the field of behavior amongst people who seem to be gender-ambiguous but whose root causes for that behavior will range from pure biology to pure psychology. I think you have already figured that out having been through the experience of being with experimental cross-dressers who then moved on. I am betting that gay people who have known about their gayness since they were young would be the largest group of people in which you would find understanding.
I have to say, though, that after reading your beautifully articulate OP and seeing how emotionally stable and mature you seem to be, I don't have a strong feeling that I need to worry about you. I think you will figure out what all this means to what kind of life you should lead, and you will surround yourself with very good people in the process.
One question for you, though. Have you ever had your chromosones tested? Some gender ambiguity can show up there pretty clearly.
Finally, I have to agree with surferboy, that as a man you are as beautiful as a woman than you are as a man. I wish on you a wonderful life full of exploration and joy. In the process, please hang around here and grace us with your presence for a while with your manliness, your womanliness, and your obviously wonderful humanity.
That is one of the most amazing OPs I have read in a long time. I am quite in awe of your ability to articulate something as subtle as this so beautifully.
I have to say that ironically, you seem to be quite "unconfused" about your gender confusion. Either it is true, or you have convinced yourself enough to convince me that your gender confusion is biological and not a psychological thing. Forgive me if I am reading something into what you said, but you certainly convinced me of it. Your clarity about that might be more than most people's clarity about their sexual identity.
So, briefly, what I am saying is that you are seem very unconfused about the source of your gender confusion. If this is true, then my opinion is that your gender ambiguity is 'normal'. And by 'normal' I don't mean typical, but that it is a necessary consequence of your biology.
Given that, you might be able to just relax and not be too concerned about the fact of it and devote your energies to figuring out what it might mean for you as you live out your life. You will have to discern who might be good role models for you out of the field of behavior amongst people who seem to be gender-ambiguous but whose root causes for that behavior will range from pure biology to pure psychology. I think you have already figured that out having been through the experience of being with experimental cross-dressers who then moved on. I am betting that gay people who have known about their gayness since they were young would be the largest group of people in which you would find understanding.
I have to say, though, that after reading your beautifully articulate OP and seeing how emotionally stable and mature you seem to be, I don't have a strong feeling that I need to worry about you. I think you will figure out what all this means to what kind of life you should lead, and you will surround yourself with very good people in the process.
One question for you, though. Have you ever had your chromosones tested? Some gender ambiguity can show up there pretty clearly.
Finally, I have to agree with surferboy, that as a man you are as beautiful as a woman than you are as a man. I wish on you a wonderful life full of exploration and joy. In the process, please hang around here and grace us with your presence for a while with your manliness, your womanliness, and your obviously wonderful humanity.