Hey fellas. Zack here. Back again. So school has started once again for me and I've been noting how I react to people of both genders when I pass by them in school. I really find guys much hotter than ladies and I have absolutely no idea whatsoever why I think this way. I just find the male anatomy so much more intriguing, their hot, muscled, sweaty bodies so alluring that whenever I have such thoughts, it just fuddles my mind. This has also been a source of motivation for me to work out harder to beef up, however, to match up with the guys I'm attracted to and moreover, it's great to feel respect from my mates. (I know ego is involved here. But I try to twitch it a notch down as too much of it is no good!) So I've been thinking... Is my attraction to males just purely sexual or can it involve romance and passion for them? (I respect the boundaries of males who are straight and do nothing to them as much as I find them hot usually.) My answer for now: I often dream of myself waking up in the arms of my man, both of us telling how much we love each other, have breakfast together and then head to work. And... I can imagine myself being romantically and sexually attracted to males. 1) Say... if I were to really fall in love with a guy, perhaps live with him (Marriage is not necessary but it would be a procession I'd love to participate in with someone I love), make lots of love like how straight couples would, and then....what's next? This question: What Next? continues flooding my mind whenever this issue comes up. This question for straight people is easily answered: Have kids, build a family, nurture them etc. If I were to really embark on this journey with a male, WHAT NEXT? What I'm doing here is not trying to predict what I will experience in the future, rather, I'm trying to do an analysis of how feasible it is for me to live on with a male. Prolly when I love a male fully... all these won't matter. 2) As for what next..... So for me and my lover, does that mean adopting kids? Are there any guys living with guys on LPSG here who have kids here? As stated by psychological studies/ theories about how male couples bringing up kids would affect their emotional etc. needs and ultimately do more harm than good to these kids, what opinion do you guys have on this issue? I'm well aware that male couples can bring up kids to be straight people (although again, sexuality is fluid and is an individual issue; nevertheless, I feel that the tendency to feel attracted to males is partly due to environmental influence.) I'm just taking things one step at a time for now as suggested by some members on LPSG. If only society could be more accepting towards males having feelings for males, these "problems" would not have prevailed till modern day.... Being an asian on this western webpage has not warped my thoughts but has certainly given me a new perspective to sexuality and has given me the chance to find out more about what I think is my real nature. P.S I have omitted the word homosexual in this thread purposely as I don't like labelling myself or other males. Sexuality is fluid for most people except for a small minority in the world. I prefer to use the term: more attracted to males or phrases similar to it. A BIG THANK YOU for those who have shared their thoughts and experiences with me during these perplexing post-pubescent years I'm going through. I'm very grateful to hear from any of you! Your LPSG mate Zack.