How do you want to have your first sexual experience? With a friend that you are attracted to and want to have sex and a relationship with? From a meet up at a bar or somewhere where people are looking to hook up and have sex, something casual? Meeting someone online? This decision can help you overcome your fears of catching disease because you can either choose a riskier or safer partner depending on who they are and where they hang out.
Wear a condom! Since you are gay you probably want to have sex with a man, so make sure he wears a condom too! But, there is kissing and oral sex too. So, you and your partner, if you both really want to have sex with each other, can get STD tests together so you both know you are safe and okay.
Do you fear going out to hang out with people in public because you might get sick? (I'm not talking about COVID-19, just like the flu or a cold in general.) Did you feel this way before the pandemic?
Hope you find the strength to enjoy one of humanity's greatest experiences of all time!