Hey guys! Have been viewing these forums for years but very first post ever and I admit its might be a long one.
Okay a little about me first then my gf. I am a 100% straight male.....except I don't know why..... but I love big cocks, and they turn me on. I DO NOT fantasise about being with a male! fucking, sucking anal or anything period to do with a male. In fact I find it quite a turn off (no offence to any gay people), except I find cocks quite hot, or love admiring at least.
Over my years of sexual experiences I have come to find that I have a fetish for receiving and watching big cocks being sucked, its one of my ultimate turn ons. You can say just a cock itself without seeing who its connected to or the person involved is what turns me on.
Anyway my girlfriend is someone who you can say has been my childhood sweet heart, and I have been madly in love with for years. I was with her for 4 years, knew her way before that. Then we broke up for what ever reason for 2 years, and now we have slowly rekindled our love. She is someone I want to marry. To me I have always viewed her as a lady. She has always been very proper in regards to being with her in being in public, someone you can never be ashamed of introducing to friends, family, grandmother even, or co workers, pretty much anyone period! She is so innocent and sweet witch many people have commented on over the years, and I love to death about her. Now she can be wild (and we have been!) but I have always suspected that she has had this extra special thing thing for cock witch I never spoke to her about. Where she is not just attracted to guys in general, but pretty much the hottest part she finds about their body's is their cocks and wanting to do nothing but just suck on that big hot juicy thing. Now just the other day our conversation led to this topic and she pretty much admitted straight out to me she is obsessed with cock! and sucking on cocks is the hottest thing she can think of! (ultimate dream to find someone who is obsessed with that kind of shit as i am!) that is her ultimate turn on when she thinks about guys.
Hearing this made my blood boil like it never has before. I recently learnt what being horny mixed with adrenalin can feel like. Now all I can ever fantasise about is her sucking on another guys a big cock. It would be so hot to watch. I pretty much told her about this, and she agreed that only if I want to that she would do it for me! Of course she will find it hot herself but mainly because I want it she would do it. She has always been very loyal and I have 100% faith she will never cheat on me. That this is a true couple experience.
Thing is I AM NOT a beta male. I can see myself belting someone I do not like trying anything with my gf. I am not into cuckolding where another male has his way with my gf nor do I feel inadequate to satisfy her. In fact I am 8x6! except the thought of her sucking on an even bigger guys cocks turns me on big time, Its something like I have never felt before. Thing is though its like I sort of have to like the guy too for it to happen (in a non gay way). And its sort of like "hey you shut the fuck up sit down and let my girl enjoy herself with that cock" no touching kissing or anything at all. keep your hands to yourself or you have me to deal with. Just her sucking on that cock is what we both want. And I have talked with my gf about this, but its pretty much me and her sharing this experience together and the 3rd person is pretty much an object for our use.
Okay so I pretty much had to be drunk to admit and type this. So sorry for my poor english this late at night/morning. Thing is how do I make this happen where I can find someone with a hot big cock I can be okay with that will adhere to the rules that I wont kill for trying to brake them. It seems so complicated but fuck its my ultimate fantasy! Thing is how do I make it work? p.s am I normal? I know its a normal thing to want to watch your girl. But my specific situation.. does that sound normal?
Cheers