I feel so fucking cliche. And I'm old enough and educated enough to know where it comes from - a desire for a companion that has these traits - and yet I'm still susceptible to the oldest gay stereotype in the book. Goddammit. Hate this arc for me.
I'm trying to do my best to reframe it and use this as a reference for the guy that I guess I'll eventually meet that IS all of these things AND gay but for now it just hurts. I work with him, we talk almost every day, and it's gotten to the point where he even called me last night when he's just going through shit and needed someone to talk him down from the ledge. I'm glad I'm this friend but I hate that I'm this friend: the surrogate girlfriend.
Now I'm just really hoping he meets another girl soon so he can do what they all do and ditch us to pour all of that into their true partners. And I mean I'll feel bad about that too but damn at least it'd be over then right? Anyway, not looking for pity or criticism 'cause I'm doing that enough to myself, but I just had a moment where I just needed to vent this out amongst a group of other gays. Big hugs to anyone who reads it.
I'm trying to do my best to reframe it and use this as a reference for the guy that I guess I'll eventually meet that IS all of these things AND gay but for now it just hurts. I work with him, we talk almost every day, and it's gotten to the point where he even called me last night when he's just going through shit and needed someone to talk him down from the ledge. I'm glad I'm this friend but I hate that I'm this friend: the surrogate girlfriend.
Now I'm just really hoping he meets another girl soon so he can do what they all do and ditch us to pour all of that into their true partners. And I mean I'll feel bad about that too but damn at least it'd be over then right? Anyway, not looking for pity or criticism 'cause I'm doing that enough to myself, but I just had a moment where I just needed to vent this out amongst a group of other gays. Big hugs to anyone who reads it.