i have to say giacomo has a valid point. i don't know you but i find it hard to imagine one questions his own existence, his own creation. if you look around you will see so many who have it far worse than yourself. if you are able to help them, in ways no one else could or would and it be done in a humble sort of way with no recognition...i believe that can make the worst person smile inside and then themselves feel like heros. it's natural to feel good about helping. like a children's hospital. to go to one and walk the halls, you see bouncing a ball a boy maybe 10 in an almost body cast. his ball rolls to you and you pick it up and now he is all eyes on you. you do your best to return it in a way not to intimidate him that makes him feel he can't catch and he smiles at you. over 50% of his body is burned yet he smiles at you. for just a moment his pain goes away, his worries, fears. and all of this cost how much? took how long? i know it can't be all of our duties to save others from falls and there's times when no one catches you. i don't understand our lives in this crazy world we've been placed in, why we were put here. why we are and some die in a few days or years. my daughter died at age 3, yet this world is full of those who should be gone. i've looked for answers. maybe it sounds corny but in my search for answers i found little but i found God and Jesus and i begged for answers but yet to have any. i guess my point is on your way look for good in this world, in it's people. help those in need. feed someone hungry and in yourself you can see good.