What am I doing?

Discussion in 'Relationships, Discrimination, and Jealousy' started by Pretender7121, Sep 4, 2010.

  1. Pretender7121

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    I've been a lurker on this site for a few years. By no definition am a large. I am average at best, about 5.5" long, 4" thick. My interest in this site is mostly due to circumcision. I am cut, but grew up at a time and place in Canada where uncut and cut were both commonplace. Up until recently, I described my self as mostly straight, but bicurious. I am interested in other guys dicks mostly to see how they are different than my own. I am especially interested in uncut guys as I'd like to get a sense of what I am missing.

    I've look at porn on the Internet for a long time and am only interest in stuff depicting women or uncut guys whacking off - kind of strange. A few months back, I started trolling Craigslist to see what is there. The other day I placed an ad in Craigslist looking for an uncut guy for mutual masturbation and nothing more. I got the usual flood of replies from obvious freaks, but one guy seemed level headed and perfect for an encounter. I met up with him yesterday. He is 10 years younger, a few inches less in stature and carrying some extra weight (like me), but has an absolutely monstrous dick. He is also very curtious, clean and discrete. He claims to be married, bi and to never to have gone further than mutual masturbation. I am not married and haven't had a LTR in a long time. He answered the door in his underwear, asked me in and asked what I wanted to do. I immediately dropped trou and replied that I wanted us to jerk each other off. He already had a towel laid down on the couch and some porn running on the TV (most gay porn doesn't interest me). I was hard right away, he took a while. I played with his foreskin as that was my primary objective of the encounter. He had surprising length and girth. His hardon kept getting thicker and thicker. He claims to be 7.5 X 6 and I am inclined to believe it. He also has a perfect foreskin, not overly long, veiney or wrinkly. I did notice that his balls were very small and didn't retract to the extent mine do when I am aroused. Anyways, the jacking went great. He rubbed my nipples a few times and spit on my dick for lube a few times as well (which I didn't like). I was the first to cum by about a minute. After the deed was done, he offered me the washroom to clean-up, which we both did. I then asked him if he was up to another round, to which he replied he wasn't because he had to be home with his wife by a certain time. To his credit, I was about late showing up so that could be true. He then asked if I was into threesomes as he knows another guy into jacking. I said maybe and then left. Immediately, I have sent him an email saying how much I enjoyed the experience and if we could make it a regular thing. .

    I am looking for advice. This is a curiousity that I need to satisfy, but I am afraid of enjoying it so much that it will ruin my attraction to women. I have been obssessed with the enounter since it happened. This could be because I have more curiousity to explore or it could mean that I like men more than women, which in itself isn't a big deal. I don't want to put his marriage in danger, but he seems to have that under control. He has replied a few times. We had a second encounter planned, but then he canceled. Since then, he keeps saying he isn't available. Besides being late, I asked him if he had ever tried docking (he said he wasn't into it), I rubbed his head so hard once he politely asked me to back off, and he finished himself off as I quit jacking him while I was cumming. He seemed really into the experience, especially playing with my balls which are far larger than his. Since then, I have replied to a few other CL ads and had a great jo encounter with a man this morning and have an invitation to a circle jerk tonight.

    In terms of my own orientation, I am most likely bi according to most definitions (rather than bicurious). I am attracted to the male body mostly out of admiration of guys who are leaner than I and uncut. I have never had attraction to a cut guy nor fanatasized about one. I am attracted to women, would only consider a LTR with a woman and definately want to start a family. I feel that I need to get this curiosity out of my system and move on. How weird is it for someone my age to be experimenting like a college kid? The one thing I am thankful for is that I may have found the perfect situation to continue the experimentation if this original guy finally agrees to another encounter.
     
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    "He hasn't replied, but that could be due to being married.....He has replied a few times."

    Please get your facts straight. The first guy you had an encounter with hasn't replied, or he's replied a few times???
     
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    I like your nick name, Pretender7121. It has always been tricky to deal with the pretenders because they cover up their true identities.
     
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    OK - fixed the post. I copied this post from another forum and edited it a bit and didn't do a good job of reading it over. The truth is he has replied several times, setup a second encounter, canceled and has then send a bunch of emails like "When you free" and "What's up".
     
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    I'm a Pretender because I'm not large.
     
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    "This is a curiousity that I need to satisfy, but I am afraid of enjoying it so much that it will ruin my attraction to women....In terms of my own orientation, I am most likely bi according to most definitions (rather than bicurious). I am attracted to the male body mostly out of admiration of guys who are leaner than I and uncut. I have never had attraction to a cut guy nor fanatasized about one. I am attracted to women, would only consider a LTR with a woman and definately want to start a family."

    Let's see: you're either bi or gay. You seem to think that you cannot have a LTR relationship or kids with another guy, both of which assumptions are false. Thus, one issue of two issues left is whether your bi side is passing phase or permanent. Assuming you're at least 28, since the guy you had an encounter with was 10 years younger, I would guess that you're not just temporarily bisexual, but that you actually always have been and might always be. So then the other issue is, assuming that still insist that you cannot have a LTR or a child with another man, whether you can find a woman who will be cool being in a LTR with a bi guy. I know such women exist, I just don't know how many of them.....
     
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    Paragraphs 1, 3 and 4 sound like stuff you hear often on these forums, OP, but number 2 sounds a lot like someone posting to get his rocks off. Not that there's anything wrong with that - I'm just sayin. It made me wonder if you're really interested in opinions, or if you just want to entertain your fetish.

    You ask for advice, but what advice are you looking for? Whether or not playing around with uncut guys will "ruin" your attraction to women? Foreskin is pretty fantastic, but if it "ruins" your attraction to women it's the attraction's fault, not foreskin's. Or even men's. When I was a teenager I thought I was equally attracted to men and women, and my attraction to men was ruining my attraction to women. In hindsight I was just in denial.

    Is it weird for you to be experimenting like a college kid? Dude, just to clarify, in Canada these days college kids aren't exactly the most closeted bunch. Trust me on this. You and your main fling, on the other hand, are. To your credit, you're opening up the closet door while he's so scared that he's cheating on his wife with random dudes from the internet. Who knows where you are on the queer spectrum, but you clearly like playing with dicks - so much so that you have a preference for the au naturale. If you ask me - and you did - that takes you well out of "bicurious" territory.

    Anyway, take this bit of advice from a life-long fag: Stay the fuck away from married "straight" men. Unless you meet his wife and she says "Oh, so you're the guy [place name here] is beating off with! Nice to meet you!" he's cheating on her, and he's a slimeball. Do you really think he's going to treat you with more respect than he does with his wife? Canada is crawling with openly bi and gay uncut men who will happily beat off with another guy, no strings attached. Stick with them.
     
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    Do not encourage married persons to cheat. If you truly want to have sex with a married person, make sure the spouse approves too.

    And yes, jacking off is sex! Whether anyone else is with you or not
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    Stop putting pressure on yourself to be labelled as gay, straight or bi. Just enjoy the experiences you are having.

    I am also inclined to agree with the post above me about not encouraging married men, or men who are already in a relationship, gay or straight, to cheat. Dont be a homewrecker! lol
     
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