What Are You Doing Right Now?

[rbkwp]

we,all know
but nave no intention to''''like gun non control,typical of our humanity

 

[rbkwp]

thinking,again ,after @ 6 am nude/ neeekid usa shower
not overly enthused re our continual existence
seems like
more f'l up's,than enjoyment/global

no matter i geuss
consolation prize

never felt like aged masturbation session,sitting down
in a/the global china white plastic chair ha
insert

usual disclaimer
tmi but wtf
gonna crap out,eventually haha

 

[rbkwp]

so much for

best friend's
church hierarchy / religion
humanity even ha
be better off if we all chose a cult over such huh

 

[rbkwp]

wondering
ie,no different to cia/israels kineset/uks scotland yard/chinas equivalent etc,every countrys secretive/furtive .org

experienced remnants of old kgb,boat to ussr/trans siberian/in russia itself
no more scary,than others, methinks

uuhumm
also
had my bitch for the day,so relatively content,i think
big buggers in trenchcoats
some females bigger than males ha

 

[rbkwp]

refusing to let Donovan's universal legacy die

love
actually thinking,of the day he appeared
its a truth
he was/did seem to be the uk's answer to usa's bob dylan

oh
superglad it's 4-20 am,not 2-40 am aged eyesight ha

 

[rbkwp]

considering
its a 70s musical
no room for complacency,in this age
or is complacency,only reserved for covid,these dasys duh
the global bs cv

smile,reminiscing
brought this vinyl lp,as an older teen

was replaying it quietly,when looking after my aged parent
he
who lived thru escaping mao's tyrany
he and i going back to china in the day it was nothing,etc
now,my turn to be aged

oh my,life huh

 

[rbkwp]

smiling
self created/playing my game
googled walk in my shadow original
came up with this ha
after listening to it 3 times/love it haha
the things we do,to amuse ourselves huh
even tho i think, thats, a lost art
folk,want to believe the bs associated with life,mebeee

now
for the porn,i promised myself ha

 

[deleted3995701]

Sitting on the couch sideways pretending two dogs aren't just off to the side ready to pounce for some attention. Love 'em to bits, wish they'd let daddy have some morning coffee time.

 

[rbkwp]

thinking,again
love woman,with powerful voices
ie miss barbers stanwyck/actress

and
women,with there hair in a bun haha
out of the way when .....
true,revelations

oh,would that make me partly/percentage str or bi

plus
getting mighty sick/sicker,of the poor me/us syndrome moaners
we have likely all,experienced hard times in life,be it our parents/grandparents times
often minimal commiseration for those really famine ravaged/war torn countries,famine,threats of bombing nightly,for years

 

[rbkwp]

cold,nz weasther standards
shivering,naaah thats bbs ha

taking my cock to the toilet
just to be porn related duh

breakfast in5
but who gives a ....

 

[deleted3995701]

I do, because you make my day better. I don't always understand your posts but I can read enough of them to know we have some similarities.

Hope it's tasty and wrap yourself up in a blanky. They're warm and snuggly.

 

[rbkwp]

I do, because you make my day better. I don't always understand your posts but I can read enough of them to know we have some similarities.

Hope it's tasty and wrap yourself up in a blanky. They're warm and snuggly.

ta x
people cant understandn my downunder/upside down ling,since 2007 ha
no matter
just trying has got to is a bonus,cheers mate

funny thing is,some wont abuse the ignore button either
nosey bastards

 

[deleted3995701]

This isn't the first time we spoke. Not even the first time we spoke since I've been back.

I don't have a lot of memory from the before time but I know that I know you and I know OldCowboy and a few others. I think some folks remember me too but it's hard trying to sort out the known and the unknown. So I call it all unknown and act like it's my first day. IT'S MY FIRST DAY!

It's never and always my first day. I cooked my brain trying to forget the pain.

*shrugs*

I couldn't have known I would change my mind and choose to live instead.

 

[rbkwp]

This isn't the first time we spoke. Not even the first time we spoke since I've been back.

I don't have a lot of memory from the before time but I know that I know you and I know OldCowboy and a few others. I think some folks remember me too but it's hard trying to sort out the known and the unknown. So I call it all unknown and act like it's my first day. IT'S MY FIRST DAY!

It's never and always my first day. I cooked my brain trying to forget the pain.

*shrugs*

I couldn't have known I would change my mind and choose to live instead.

thanks for your honesty bud/a rarity,these days
often helps
stay safe and well,cheers
we all have something to contribute,yes

 

[deleted3995701]

Thinking about my daddy, ex-daddy, I don't remember a lot. It was before I cooked myself the first few times. Daddy hated drugs, I ran to them to deal with the pain. Life might have been very different if I had of listened.

He tried to help me but was so wrong in the how-to. Now I get flashes of memory from that time and I can't form them into full pictures.

I think back and I know I failed being the best boy. Can't fix stupid, just gotta ride it out. Something inside me knows that daddy will always love me in his twisted way and as I grew up, I learned why Daddy was the way he is. He's got his own demons to fight and they were very different from mine.

Daddy, you'll always have that spot in me that's yours. You claimed it and no one has ever come close.

I'm not your boy anymore though. What's happening in me is growth and it's my growth. If you were still around, I wouldn't be me anymore. I'd be who you molded, shaped and built and unless I do the building, this house will fall.

In some sick way I still love you and that's ok because I love me more.

 

[Reg]

Emailed a new guy I met and hoping he will be able to meet tomorrow at 10:00. Been very horny for him these last couple of days. Nice thick cock, feels so good.

 

[rbkwp]

watching,my spunk of thwe year
oh,did i say love rural,as well haha

6am shower,cool

winter nz,but not cold this am

cock aged,to toilet,b4/mod txt shit ww ha

 

[deleted3995701]

I'm raw, scabbed over and healing. Things are getting itchy inside so I know it's growth and recovery.

I'm sorry about your pet Pig. I hope she made good bacon.

 

[rbkwp]

thanks x
i got rid of my post,but superglad you read it
and thanks for your commiserations,plus not putting it in your reply
keep well,it/that is a fear i do have

 

[deleted3995701]

extra fixed, read it again