Fluidity, yep that’s the thing.
I can tell you my real life experience rather than what I think I would do.
when I was 19 in a small town college I had a friend that was about 35 and an interpreter for the hearing impaired students. This guy was also a photographer that had done shots at Houston Oiler football games, so that was pretty cool. I always kind of suspected he was into guys but it certainly didn’t matter to me even though it was only the 80’s. I had a build back then and he invited me over under the guise of photographing me. I suspected and I was actually kind of into the idea.
The evening went well and progressed maybe a bit cautiously for fear he may have a phobe on his hands but things progressed and we went back to his bedroom. My mind was racing as I took off my clothes an laid back but I wasn’t hard at all and regardless of what he did there was nothing. He was cool about it and he knew I was inexperienced so he just relaxed and we talked. He told me about my other friends that had been there, which wasn’t to cool of him but ok. I’ve never cared much for being a receiver. I absolutely love giving oral when it comes to my wife. Thing is, she doesn’t really enjoy it. She is too sensitive. Maybe that’s my karma or punishment, to not get what I want most.
Honestly, I think I was just wound up so tight and worried that night I just could let myself get into it. For years I wished he had pursued it more. Turns out he got sick and died in the mid 80’s and I didn’t know it till last year. Would have liked to tried again.
In the years since, I’ve been married forever and never done anything outside my marriage. But there have been many many times I have wished I could experience giving head to another guy. I have no interest in holding , kissing, or romance at all, but the idea of the physical act and him filling my mouth. Oh yeah, at least once I’d say.
So, yeah, fluidity, it’s an interesting concept.