I caught my hubby in the middle of the night when he thought I was asleep, looking at hot chics on a biker web site. He was strokin' to boot. It stabbed me in the heart cause he always professed I was his whole life and there was no one but me, I had no reason to doubt. I told him how much it bothered me because I'm not young anymore and have become self conscious about that. I know I'm still attractive and in good, but not great shape. He apologized for hurting me. Well, something similar happened a second time just recently, although I found out by accident when he forgot to clear his autocomplete and viola, clicked on the strange site and bingo. I was asked in the Lounge the A.M. if I was faithful. I said yes, but I don't feel faithful since I'm sneeking here to play and look. I just got mad at hubby and thought if he's going to continue, I'm not sitting on the sidelines like a fool. I still feel like I'm cheating on him without being with another man. I feel like he'd be furious if he found out what I was up to. BTW, I'm more than willing to watch porno with him, I'd even stroke him while he's lookin at the biker chics to please him......I just feel betrayed because he's doing it behind my back What do you all think is "cheating"? Are you like Clinton: "I never had sex with that woman!" so that's supposed to be ok?