how do i put this. basically im eighteen and not out, I left school 2007, where for five years I had completely fallen for this guy. He, of course was the typical really fit football playing confident guy, who always had a girlfriend or had someone on the go. I spoke to him then, on the odd occasion, when we spoke he always very nice, sweet and seemed very genuine. But after school finished, we went to separate colleges and to be honest i've had completely forgotten about him until recently. I was it a friends party, and he was here. He was sober, I was tipsy and we got talking. We talked for awhile and feelings I had came rushing back to me, and I distinctly remember him asking me 'Did I want to try something new' and he put his hand on my thigh and leaned in. Because the party was full of people I know, i immediatly rejected him. Im not ready to come out yet. I completely regret his now. He was never said he was gay or bi or even curious. There was once a rumour in college we kissed another lad, but rumours are rumours. I can talk to him on msn. But i have no what say, where start. I fear that if i say something, we may tell people about me, we havent spoke much for me know wether I can trust him. Any advice or something? I have really strong feeling for him, now. I cant help but think what might have happened if i hadnt said no.