cegro27: I agree with you "Child_of_the_sun", I feel bad alot of times that I can't really open myself up to getting to know another guy for who he is without this big cock-attraction getting in the way. I wish that I could just meet a guy, get to know him really well and develop a genuine friendship, and if it turns into a sexual thing, finding out he has a huge cock would be the icing on the cake. But, it rarely works that way in reality, and I always find it better to be upfront about what I'm looking for at the start rather than to offend the guy's feelings later on if I should find out he's not hung.
I really wish this attraction/fetish/obsession (whatever it is) would just go away, but it won't, and it seems there's nothing I can do, short of swearing off men forever, that will make it disappear. It's like I'm intelligent enough to know how stupid it is to fixate on one part of the male anatomy, but it's a feeling so deeply embedded in me that I have no control over it. It's like trying to resist the urge to blink your eyes, or scratch an itch, or keep yourself from shivering when you're cold. It's a big hinderance to developing a true meaningful relationship because I could never fully devote my love and commitment to a guy who's not as endowed as I like.