I'm terrible at articulating my thoughts and ideas well. I have an amazing ability of thought, but when it comes to putting those thoughts out into words others can understand, I'm hopeless. Such is the case with the current "New Membership Options" thread. I have so much to say, but I can't get it out right. I spent the last thirty minutes trying to compose a post only to give up because it sounded horrendous and didn't make sense in the way I thought it would in my mind. Such is my experience many a time here. And IRL it's no better. I suppose the reason I'm so shy and quiet is because I'm afraid of making a fool of myself by speaking too quickly and making no sense in what I say. I must have time to really form my thoughts and feelings into words and present them in a coherent manner. I'm okay in small talk, but I go wobbly whenever I must explain and say what I'm thinking or how I feel. It sucks, big time.
I also wanted to say that I'm horrible with lending out my things too. I actually worry and wonder whether things such as CDs and DVDs are being taken care of as I would like by the people I've lent them to. Lending money is less worrying, but I hate having to ask for it. I hate it when people take their sweet time to pay me back, because I try to avoid antagonizing the situation by asking for payment when I think it should be made. I lent my sister a large bit of money from my bank account back in June but, to date, she's only paid me back a fraction of it when she originally told me she would pay it all back to me in mere days. But, of course, I let others walk all over me because I'm afraid of complicating matters by being agressive. I'm such a pussy, I swear.:redface::biggrin1:
Some other things that were mentioned that are also true for me:
Grammar - OMG! I cannot punctuate properly to save my life.
I just don't know how to do it. (In fact, this whole post is fucked that way, I know).:redface: I'm good at some aspects of grammar, such as spelling and usage, but punctuation will always be my achilles heel.
Throwing things away - I'm horrible with this. I just cannot bear to part with some things. I always think I may need them at some time down the road. The fact that I have thrown away things in the past, which I later needed, just reinforces this behavior.
Getting things done on time - I am the ultimate procrastinator.