I dream of either constraints or freedom. The proportion at any given time directly correlates to my current stress level, but my overall proportion--lifetime numbers--is skewed toward freedom.
In terms of constraints, I've dreamt of being a child again--being forced to put up with crazy parenting and dysfunctional family life again. I've dreamt of running through the dark or through the mist in an extreme state of fear, but knowing (somehow, fatalistically) that I cannot escape whoever or whatever is chasing me (which usually isn't obvious). I've dreamt of being in prison, alternately bored and terrified out of my mind. I've dreamt of being fired from my job in a tremendously public and therefore humiliating way.
The feeling of (or wish for?) freedom typically manifests itself in dreams of vacations, being a trust fund baby, becoming a lottery winner, telling off a nasty boss, resigning from a job in order to take a better one, giving a presentation that the audience loves--that sort of thing.
But when I was at my lowest point as a child trapped in my parents' house and living under their control, I used to dream of swimming through the air. Not precisely flying, but close.
It usually was a slow-motion movement, typically through slanting sunbeams on a fairly sunny day, in warm air, turning onto my side or stomach and moving like a fish does, but through the air. I remember knowing that gravity didn't affect me at all if I didn't want it to, and that I could go anywhere I wanted and at whatever speed I wanted to--but that I chose to go slowly and savor the experience. Occasionally, the air felt like water--I could cup my hands and pull myself along through it as I could when swimming underwater--but more often, my arms felt like large wings with no feathers and a disproportionately strong stroke for not having feathers. (In fact, several times I remember thinking, "Why is this working? Oh yeah, it's a dream.")
A few times, I'd experience two simultaneous perspectives: I'd see through my own eyes, and I'd also see my body moving through the pale blue or pale green or even sunny yellow or transparent air. Interestingly, though, most of the time I saw my body swimming in the air, but not through my own eyes. (I wonder now whether that was a manifestation of how disconnected I felt at the time from the real me.) Then, I remember marveling at how wonderful the experience was for me, but how strange it was that I could see myself swimming through the air.
I'd wake up and remember that happy, free, warm feeling and lie there savoring the feeling and imagining a time when I'd be out of my parents' house and away from their multiple issues. I'd also feel a strong need to protect the person swimming through the air--to protect the me/not-me that I saw from an external perspective while still feeling the warm air wash over my body as I swam through it.
Those dreams gave me hope and the motivation to live instead of to commit suicide, which I seriously considered a few times.
NCbear (who's become a bit maudlin in the moment, yeah, but who enjoys the memory of those "swimming through the air" dreams as beautiful moments in their own right, separate from how they helped me psychologically at the time :smile