ITs hard to say... I was conditioned to love it as a kid.
The initial draw was just that it was forbidden and nasty... I was raised catholic and had a terrific curiosity about sex...
Even though I was initially forced to do it... the very idea of being forced to do something so forbidden and sexual was thrilling.
That is certainly what got me coming back for more...
And It was not enough that I was merely made to suck cock... I was also made to say out loud how much I loved sucking it, how much I wanted to suck it... how much I wanted them to cum or piss in my mouth... I was expected to beg for it.
I suppose it started out as pretending... saying these things because I was supposed to...but eventually I discovered I wasn't pretending anymore.... I really did crave it... I really did love the feeling of it splattering the back of my mouth and the tickle of the spooge in my throat.
And thanks to my catholic upbringing, the nastier a thing they wanted me to do, the more I wanted to do it.
By the time I was old enough to realize I preferred women.... I had already had a deep portion of my brain wired to respond to cock.
No matter how much I love the way a woman feels, looks, sounds smells and tastes...
I still think about the satin smooth feel of a cock in my mouth... pulling on a guy's balls and feeling his cock swell and stiffen agaisn't my tongue.
The sweet slipperiness of the precum and the satisfying blast of orgasm...
Its sensually pleasing... challenging... and, still, nasty as hell.