I'm not gay, or do i think im Bi, because i don't feel any romance with guys only with women, but for some reason i think putting a guys cock in my mouth and sucking on it for him is such a turn on especially as I'm listen to him moan as while I'm licking and sucking as my lips are wrapped around the head of his cock right as he's about to cum. I'd truly love doing this again for a guy because the last time I sucked cock was back in the late 90s and I'd love doing it for a guy again. Honestly the only thing that would be different today is i'd be doing it without being high on coke. the times I had sucked cock was when i was high on cock and party with the guy, or guys. Most guys get Horny when they are high for getting therir cocks sucked, but with me i was the one who loved sucking it for them. As we would be getting high I'd i'd slip on a porn then tell them I like doing that, sucking cock. at first most the time they would say no, but as we are getting high and we were getting so horny i'd get them to put their cock in my mouth. It took a while of being alone both them and us both high on coke, but before i know it I was down between their lags sucking on their cock and as i was wow it was such a turn on and I loved it. Honestly being high on cock really made me so horny for sucking cock and right after a line, and get so into sucking on their cock and falling so in love with it as i was. one time hanging with a butch of guys as we all got high i had 3 guys cocks in my face and sucking on all three as the few other guys there were watching, yeah that was my wild times, and truthfully I really truly did love it. Honestly I would do it again for a few guys, but without getting high, yet i know this fantasy wont happen unless a found a few guys to party with like before. I know the coke made it easier for me to be able to have a guy put his cock in my mouth, but as im getting older i cant do it anymore i dont need my heart stopping, but sucking cock is what i enjoy doing and it always on my mind. There's this black guy a friend of mine named Phil and and after getting to know him for years i started really getting to fantasize about sucking his cock and making him cum. The crazy thing is i can't get him off my mind all i'd been doing is thank of all the ways it wold happen and how i'd love softly rubbing his balls in my one hand as my other hand is stoking his cock as im sucking on the head up until he came . Hes a really nice guy and when he talks to me i fantasize in his low soft voice it's such a turn on especially when i fantasize as I'm between his lags sucking on the head of his cock he'll be saying to me, yeah that's it don't stop while he's moaning, especially as he's saying this to me as right as about to make him cum. What would trully be a turn on is as he's telling me this I'd glance up at him and wink letting him know it's ok cum i want you to cum in my mouth, wow that's so hot!! . I had emailed him a few times giving him hints that it was me, and one time after a few times I wrote him telling him how i'd truly love sucking on the head of his big wet cock he surprised me by writing back and asking me really?. I thought to myself wow he's interested and i was so happy my fantasy to giving him a blowjob was about to come true. I wrote him back to his replay really, telling him yes really asking him so you'd be for that me sucking on the head of his big wet cock for you and making him cum and he again he replied,, yes that would be nice.. Being excited i wrote him back again telling him, so next time we're alone together ask me if there's something i wanted to tell you, and I'll reply with yes, asking you to please keep it a secret and after you reply with yes absolutely i'd know it my hint, I'd tell you i'd love sucking on your cock. then after the 4ed email thinking he wasn't getting the ones i sent, he wrote me back,, say he's not interested. Wow, what a disappointment because i had my heart set on sucking on his cock and making him feel really awesome until he came, and for him i would had even let him cum in my mouth and for him I would had swallowed. I think he had known it was me because and although he was thinking about it, must had meet a new woman and changed his mind, maybe and that blows.