Okay, I don't know if any other sexuality-struggling people feel like this, but I've been debating homosexuality mentally/physically since 6th grade. When I masterbate and think about guys, it feels good when I'm doing it and thinking about them, but as soon as I ejaculate, I feel ashamed and diffident. This happened not only when I did it by myself but when I jerked off/with a guy and it was really uncomfortable afterwards. (He was kind of religious, but good looking!) Am I potentially not homo-sexual and forcing it, or am I fighting the inevitable?