Mourning that Asians will probably never get significant push back against the racism we deal with in my lifetime. The Gold Rush era, the internment camps, LA's Koreatown, the current issues w Covid going on, etc, and how deeply ingrained casual racism is to Asians is not something I think will go away while I still am alive. We'll never be important enough to others. We don't make enough noise, fight enough. People flat out don't even think of us. Hell, they'll trip over themselves to give money to supremacist groups/nationalistic groups before thinking of us.
Is a deep but hollow feeling ache inside me. I hate it an am more n more disappointed with humanity as the days pass.