Whilst never wanting to be too cliche, my short answer to each of those questions is simply, "love."
My goal/dream/ambition/desire (call it what you will) of being in love and spending the rest of my life with someone is what gets me up every morning.
I don't have a specific career, house, location or social standing that I aspire to; I simply want to find somebody I love, who loves me back, and to spend the rest of my life with them. (And I believe I've already accomplished that; it's now time for me to live my dream, and I'll never take this blessing for granted, nor regret my decisions.)
Similar to my previous answer - the desire to attain my dream(s). Once attained, my desire to keep them becomes my motivation.
To delve into possibly sappy, romantic specifics - mercurialbliss is what motivates me. But not simply because she is my partner, but as a friend. Over the past few years I dropped out of college [twice], had no job, did little to help my friends or family and basically achieved no form of productivity whatsoever. Admittedly a valid portion of this was to do with illness, but that was still no excuse.
When I began talking with her and we became friends, I learned of her birthday and, armed with that knowledge and friendship, began making plans to come and see here for her birthday as a surprise: I needed to generate some income, get in shape, organise my entire life, and I did so.
She changed my life far before we ever realised and admitted how we felt about each other - she still is changing it. The momentum and motivation she gave me continues to grow to this day. :redface:
I truly believe that though my body and mind is mortal, my soul (or whichever soul inhabits my body) is not.
Although I believe this to be true, whether it actually is or not, is not an issue for me; my belief in that helps me in life and I expect it will continue to do so.
Therefore, I cannot see myself ever having an existential crisis. I am, however, acutely aware that most anything has the possibility to change. (Perhaps odd for me as I've always carried a rather cold, clinical, outlook on life, largely due to my mostly logical & mathematical mind.)
When I was a teenager, I did go through heavy bout of depression and apathy about life and it's meaning in general, the pointlessness of my existence and my ever-changing understanding of Christianity & Atheism; I doubt that was any kind of crisis, per se.
It was most likely just me being a teenager, possibly amplified a little by my illness and/or level of intelligence.
Either way - as I stated above in response to the second and third questions - my life has and is still changing for the better, as are my world views and spiritual beliefs.
My goal/dream/ambition/desire (call it what you will) of being in love and spending the rest of my life with someone is what gets me up every morning.
I don't have a specific career, house, location or social standing that I aspire to; I simply want to find somebody I love, who loves me back, and to spend the rest of my life with them. (And I believe I've already accomplished that; it's now time for me to live my dream, and I'll never take this blessing for granted, nor regret my decisions.)
Similar to my previous answer - the desire to attain my dream(s). Once attained, my desire to keep them becomes my motivation.
To delve into possibly sappy, romantic specifics - mercurialbliss is what motivates me. But not simply because she is my partner, but as a friend. Over the past few years I dropped out of college [twice], had no job, did little to help my friends or family and basically achieved no form of productivity whatsoever. Admittedly a valid portion of this was to do with illness, but that was still no excuse.
When I began talking with her and we became friends, I learned of her birthday and, armed with that knowledge and friendship, began making plans to come and see here for her birthday as a surprise: I needed to generate some income, get in shape, organise my entire life, and I did so.
She changed my life far before we ever realised and admitted how we felt about each other - she still is changing it. The momentum and motivation she gave me continues to grow to this day. :redface:
I truly believe that though my body and mind is mortal, my soul (or whichever soul inhabits my body) is not.
Although I believe this to be true, whether it actually is or not, is not an issue for me; my belief in that helps me in life and I expect it will continue to do so.
Therefore, I cannot see myself ever having an existential crisis. I am, however, acutely aware that most anything has the possibility to change. (Perhaps odd for me as I've always carried a rather cold, clinical, outlook on life, largely due to my mostly logical & mathematical mind.)
When I was a teenager, I did go through heavy bout of depression and apathy about life and it's meaning in general, the pointlessness of my existence and my ever-changing understanding of Christianity & Atheism; I doubt that was any kind of crisis, per se.
It was most likely just me being a teenager, possibly amplified a little by my illness and/or level of intelligence.
Either way - as I stated above in response to the second and third questions - my life has and is still changing for the better, as are my world views and spiritual beliefs.
But it feels good to find people who enjoy it, especially ones I truly care about
