What I Was Dealt With

[jonb]

That's when I take out my .44 Magnum and get medieval on their buttocks.

(Okay, too much Mad TV for me.)

 

[dfox7.3x5]

Originally posted by Dr Rock+Mar 22 2005, 03:19 PM--><div class='quotetop'>QUOTE(Dr Rock &#064; Mar 22 2005, 03:19 PM)</div><div class='quotemain'><!--QuoteBegin-Steve26@Mar 21 2005, 06:33 PM
they claim to be very well-endowed and act as if it&#39;s all a bed of roses. ("Yeah man, I fucked three chicks with my 11-incher this weekend, and they all loved it&#33;&#33;

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hey&#33;&#33; I DID fuck three chicks with my 11-incher last weekend, AND I&#39;m pretty sure they all loved it&#33;

... okay, granted I knew all of them beforehand ...

... yeah and okay, two of them have been living with me for several months anyway ...

... and I suppose it&#39;s true that for every girl who can enjoy sex with me, there are probably half a dozen who can&#39;t or won&#39;t ...

... what the hell, my bed of roses is full of fucking thorns&#33;

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Dr. Rock, you&#39;re wonderful. I look forward to your posts. Would also like to see your personal post someday, but that probably won&#39;t happen. Anyway, cheers&#33; [/b][/quote]

 

[B_hungrick]

Originally posted by DeeBlackthorne@Mar 21 2005, 11:24 PM
Well, I don&#39;t feel like my sexual shortcomings are very indictative of the growth and comfort I have with myself on my own terms.  In the same vein, while it&#39;s definitely more frustrating to have women feel totally unprepared and unwilling to wrangle down with the beast in my pants, some part of me finds a real ego boost in me.  The hesitation, albeit aggravating, is more telling of my lacking inadequacy in size -- an affirmation the good lot of guys would kill for, you see.  Like I mentioned, but maybe not as specifically, I knew I measured between 7 and 7.5 in high school and I STILL worried about where I fit on the dick size curve, you see.  Even after realizing that the average hovers around 6", I was STILL insecure.

Know that I really appreciate a lot of sympathy that my musings have generated.  Don&#39;t worry.  I&#39;m not beating myself up over something I couldn&#39;t control -- my dick size.  It was just on my mind, and I felt like LPSG was a damn good place to disclose.

Among those sympathies, I found Zora&#39;s to be the most... I dunno... telling.  What I mean is, she really hit on a crux that I have had to rationalize and sort out in my head.  Some guys are slutty, and like Prep said, they appreciate the challenge of a big dick -- a challenge that most women won&#39;t take.  I&#39;m truly glad for the Sperm Boys and the Pipeliners of the world who have been graciously blessed with women who readily take on the challenge in their pants.  And, statistically, I figure that, albeit rather rare, there HAS to be SOME woman out there who&#39;s engineered to take me on. 

And that&#39;s my problem.  I can rationalize this issue in a drastically different way than I can emotionally.  Heh.  Honestly, I&#39;m really proud of my rationality because it takes an incredibly rare breed of heterosexual man to feel comfortable enough disclosing homosexual attractions, while realizing, ultimately, that these physical attractions are but a wisp of the attraction I feel toward women.  Similarly, I drank a few beers with a good buddy of mine in my grad program.  We spit at each other all the time; our friendship is founded upon picking on each other, and yet we have a healthy level of respect and liking for one another.  And as a good girl friend of mine -- the girl of my threesome -- gave me a smooch on the cheek, I jokingly gestured toward him and he did it too.

Maybe that&#39;s my crux.

A really good friend of mine suggested that, as we age, our conceptions of sexuality seriously change up quite a bit.  Maybe I&#39;m ahead of my time, but I feel comfortable acknowledging that I&#39;m straight -- which holds true for me emotionally -- and yet being able to dance along the continuum on my own will.  Maybe that&#39;s the Dionysian in me.  Greek mythology, in some sense, might suggest that the God of Wine was, in fact, the epitome of bisexuality.  His charms could arouse... I don&#39;t know... lacking inhibition in anyone.

C&#39;mon.  It&#39;s strangely funny how many of my male friends I&#39;ve kissed in college -- on the lips -- and, on just a few, some tongue.  ("Guys Gone Wild," I assure you.)

I grin as I think of the danger and charm I have wielded, and that gives me a sickeningly strong dose of power that, if I weren&#39;t up in my years and a little more aware of, I could really run away with.  And I test it sometimes.  I test situations.  I get a little reckless sometimes, and I don&#39;t regret it.  My cham hasn&#39;t got me into too much trouble.

This isn&#39;t just about my frustration about women.

Ah, what I would give for a brave girl.  What I would give for an accommodating girl.  A brave, accommodating girl would be the be-all, end-all of some of my sexual dissatisfactions.  Not that being deprived of this woman makes me less of a feeling individual.  I&#39;m capable -- more than, really.  I realize that I&#39;m still young and that I&#39;m not quite in a place where I can really express that intimacy.  Perhaps that&#39;s a precursor for marriage.  Cool.  Well... um... nope, not quite ready for that.  Capable, but not ready. 

And still a bit frustrated:  Where&#39;s that girl who can wrangle my dick down, again?

But that&#39;s not the end-all, my fellow LPSGers.

And in the end, maybe I&#39;m feeling like Rick&#39;s got the right idea.  For sure, enjoying, accepting, and understanding a big dick is as much as a process as anything else.  It takes time.  It&#39;s not just an instant "in" with women, and it definitely requires patience, diligence, and... er, responsibility.  At the same time, maybe I&#39;m looking at it the wrong way.  I see my big dick as a bit of an inconvenience, but as Prep and I openly discussed, I wouldn&#39;t ever, ever, ever trade it for anything less.  It&#39;s gotten in the way, but I don&#39;t feel like my dick has ever held me back from being who I am... in the total sense.  In fact, it has granted me the exhibitionistic tendency which has ultimately given me a lot more security.  I feel good about being who I am.  I&#39;m proud of what I got.  I can pull my pants down and shake my dick about and feel okay about it. 

And extended in other ways, I can get comfortable with my male friends in a way that would make your average, non-Dee, straight dude shudder in discomfort.  Nope.  Wound up, I&#39;m not.  Just a little frustrated in some respects, no worries.

"No woman is going to let a few inches come between you and her."  You&#39;re a hoot, Max.

Thanks for the thoughtful replies, gang.  I&#39;m glad I could get this off my chest, however nonsensical and erratic it may seem on screen.

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I&#39;m beginning to understand why some of the regulars on this site are close to one another. I just found this particular thread of Dee&#39;s original post. It&#39;s a clear expression of his situation. Being a therapist I&#39;m sure definitely adds weight to his self-analysis. This is a man who knows himself. I wanted to add one thing that&#39;s been extra important in my own sexuality and relationship history. I&#39;ve never had intimate relations with a woman I didn&#39;t really feel close to. If I want to kiss a woman, then I&#39;m going to be want to be close to her in other ways. I&#39;m talking about chemistry here. Don&#39;t know any other word to describe it. When the chemistry is there, then the size of my cock or the size of her breasts or the color of my eyes or any other characteristic don&#39;t seem to make any difference. And chemistry is two-sided. Both parties have to feel it strongly. So while I understand the need to find a woman who is willing to accomodate my big cock, I&#39;d rather meet a woman who can touch my big heart and I can touch hers.

 

[faceking]

Originally posted by Dr Rock+Mar 22 2005, 07:19 AM--><div class='quotetop'>QUOTE(Dr Rock &#064; Mar 22 2005, 07:19 AM)</div><div class='quotemain'><!--QuoteBegin-Steve26@Mar 21 2005, 06:33 PM
they claim to be very well-endowed and act as if it&#39;s all a bed of roses. ("Yeah man, I fucked three chicks with my 11-incher this weekend, and they all loved it&#33;&#33;

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hey&#33;&#33; I DID fuck three chicks with my 11-incher last weekend, AND I&#39;m pretty sure they all loved it&#33;

... okay, granted I knew all of them beforehand ...

... yeah and okay, two of them have been living with me for several months anyway ...

... and I suppose it&#39;s true that for every girl who can enjoy sex with me, there are probably half a dozen who can&#39;t or won&#39;t ...

... what the hell, my bed of roses is full of fucking thorns&#33;

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Lars Ulrich... shouldn&#39;t you be touring right about now???&#33;&#33;&#33;

 

[naughty]

Hungrick,

I loved what you said as a response to Dee. That is the ulitimate to me. You see the person and and move on from there. The two of you can work out the mechanics.

naughty

 

[CuriousGuy]

I did an interview recently for this guy wanting to write an exhibitionist-sorta article talking, rather frankly, about dick size and life experiences. It was a great hour and some odd conversation over a variety of topics, and it was a good interview because he kept up his end of the conversation as much as I did. I wasn't really worried about disclosing because -- at the very most -- it's just my dick in a picture.

But the interviewer asked me if my dick has been problematic for me in the bedroom as far as the ladies go, and I had to whoop and holler because he hit it dead on. Of course it has been an issue... a big one. I'm not super experienced with women or anything, but the ladies I have had have been unable or unwilling to brave what I got in the pants. At first it used to really piss me off because... several reasons, really. Before I was "aware" of my size, I thought girls weren't really interested in me, and that's a hard blow for an insecure teenager to take. And now that I'm fairly confident in my appearance, I... let's see... how to keep the thoughts coherent...

Alright, well. I wasn't really into sport fucking girls in college. I like to flirt and meet up and talk, but I certainly don't post notches on the headboard and go out for the sole purpose of banging. In this day and age with STDs and all that stuff, you can never be too careful, right? And I don't think I'm ridiculously picky with women; at the same time, I've seen more than enough bar bimboes to suit me fine. I guess it's my fault. I'm expecting to find a reasonably attractive and intelligent to share some brews with. Have met one that sticks out in my mind. Just one. And we didn't hook up.

And I'm 25 now and I can be pretty honest in admitting that I find some dudes physically attractive and just leaving it at that. There's not much of an emotional connection. I can think of a handful of guys I'm close to -- I can hug 'em if I take off -- and that's just a function of our friendship. We're close; we get along. Other than that, I might notice a guy if he's got a good build... and in the right setting -- the gym -- me, like most other dudes, will wonder what's in the briefs. But that's it. It's not much deeper than that.

And I can accept with some resignation that dudes are just gonna be better and more available for a blowjob than a lady. I can admit it's a lot easier to just scout for some head than to go through all the paces of drink-buying and tomfoolishness to woo a woman. Not that I don't think I could without doing that, but it can be a bit of a pain, and when the dick is up, it's yelling for attention. And I don't follow this impulse all that time -- just occasionally.

And dare I say it, sometimes I wonder that if I (1) weren't so big and (2) guys weren't so accessible and (3) I had a little more patience, would my thoughts and feelings turn out differently? I'd like to think that being relatively lax about this kinda thing is just my personality and not necessarily my sexuality. At the same time, girls have typically been more of a problem than a sexual blessing -- and after enough time, you wonder how much it weighs on you. While I can jokingly say that I'd make a decent gay guy, it's just not how I swing emotionally and psychosocially. And if I were just into getting nailed... well... I should be a gay guy. Easy access.

Just thinkin' aloud.

This is why I like this dude so much, lol. Great post, really makes you think. As a gay man with a very average endowment I can't totally relate to this dilemma but I can definitely understand your rethinking how good it is to be large. Anyway, Dee, I believe you will find the right person, no doubt. You seem to put yourself out there in an open-minded way so you're bound to locate that special one that will cherish what you have to offer. And then I have a hunch you'll be glad for every last inch! Good Luck.

 

[rawbone8]

I'm pleased to see this thread revived. It really is refreshing to imagine what lspg can be.

It has more substance and honesty than so many of the fluff threads that proliferate. (Though I enjoy funny and goofy threads as much as anyone) I think this is fine example of the kind of subject post that long time members miss (as Max pointed out) seeing on the board.

Hopefully, something for new members and old to aspire to: some bravery and candour like Dee exhibits.

 

[pdrprst]

I agree with Rawbone, this is a great thread and deserves to be alive over just about any of the others I have seen recently.

Dee, always a pleasure reading your stuff. I know what you mean about "the deed" being vastly harder to get done than playing around. My measuring stick (so to speak) is always whether or not I expect that she will be there in the morning.

Hopefully, my screening process has worked and I've found a girl who wants to spend time, and the night, with me and my dick. Thus, she'll be willing to work with me and deal with him.

Sometimes it all works perfectly from the start, others we are still trying the next morning, next night, next time we see each other. Is it easy to find?

Hell no, but it is certainly worth trying because the sex is vastly better than the people with whom you share no caring bond. The girls sleeping with your dick will do things to keep him happy, but not you. I think I'm airing past grievances now, so I'll sign off.

 

[deleted111]

My biggest gripe has always been guys and having eyes bigger then they can handle. Having a huge one is more an eye candy treat then something to actually use for many guys. Very frustrating to go through all the trouble of picking out someone to sleep with just to find that nothing will happen even when they know about it ahead of time.

Cardy

 

[B_Stronzo]

Dee, this is an amazing post, and I think it gets to the heart of what lpsg is all about. Anyone who is truly large has experienced the things you speak of, or they simply have not encountered many women! For most women, you can in fact have too much of a good thing. Even those who claim to be size queens or size capable will have their limits, and often far smaller than average men would like to believe. One needs only look at the small number of female participants on this site to realise that.

I have long wondered about exactly what you said, if more large guys turned to men primarily because of the difficulties in finding women who were willing and able. I know that feeling gay and engaging in sex with men can be two different things, and I am overjoyed that you shared this honest post with us. I think women in general can be a pain in the ass when it comes to sex, I'm actually surprised more men (regardless of size) don't site reasons like yours for preferring male sex. Men give better head and generally don't require you to spend a sufficient amount of money on them before they'll agree to have sex with you. We women are bitching ourselves right out of a good thing!

Dee, you are so young and so incredibly beautiful, whoever ends up with you as a partner will be a very lucky soul indeed. I can only imagine how wonderful it would be to wake up and see that pretty face on the pillow next to me. Given time, you will find someone who feels that way about you and will find your extra blessing to be just that.

Thanks for telling it like it really is, guy. After so much talk about "I GOT BIG PEE-PEE" on this site, I'm glad to see us communicating about what really matters. Much love, Jana

Dee's post was enlightening and I've enjoyed reading all the comments but this one piece of your post Janna has me a bit put-off:

I have long wondered about exactly what you said, if more large guys turned to men primarily because of the difficulties in finding women who were willing and able. I know that feeling gay and engaging in sex with men can be two different things, and I am overjoyed that you shared this honest post with us.

That's quite a premise.

I can tell you from my own personal experience and that of many "over-sized" guys in the gay and straight community alike around here that I'm pretty sure no one 'turned to men' because they didn't want to be bothered courting a woman. Remember Dee's gay percentage as posted under his avatar. It just hits me a bit off, somehow, what you've gleaned from his first post.

I believe men do what suits them at the time sexually and don't 'turn' out of frustration. In my considerable experience no amount of "good head" is going to make a heterosexual guy "settle" for head from another man. The whole "turning gay" thing per se is an unnerving concept. How can "feeling gay and engaging in sex with men be two different things"? I realize full well that many gay men don't act on their homosexuality. Is that what you mean? Or do you speak of this recent phenomenon of the metrosexual (so-called)?

Perhaps I'm off but I think that part of your post is disturbing to those of us who happen to wear the appendage.

Thanks, Richard

 

[ledroit]

great post. My first girlfriend said I was too big, I just had a boyfriend say the same thing. I liked the way you say it is a mixed blessing, since it is. I think overall, it's more emotional than physical. Some people, male or female, are more worried than others about accepting a large gift. Maybe it's just physical--I'm not an MD.

But I also like what you say about easier sex with men, even though you are not emotionally gay. That makes perfect sense to me. What made me decide I was gay is that I fell deeper in love with men than I did with women, and realized I could not be as faithful to women as I wanted to be with men. I'm also the kind of guy who has emotions hard wired to his dick. Sometimes great, other times not. But even so, I think men are built biologically to have sex under a lot of different circumstances, some recreational, some curious, some intensely emotional and involved. It's just the way it is. Women do have to be more selective--it's to men's advantage not to be too selective biologically, as long as they can stay healthy and survive for another year.

Overall, in spite of, or even because of all the words, wouldn't you have to say this is a great topic?

And how about another post on the topic? Has anything changed for you in the last year?

 

[madame_zora]

Dee's post was enlightening and I've enjoyed reading all the comments but this one piece of your post Janna has me a bit put-off:



That's quite a premise.

I can tell you from my own personal experience and that of many "over-sized" guys in the gay and straight community alike around here that I'm pretty sure no one 'turned to men' because they didn't want to be bothered courting a woman. Remember Dee's gay percentage as posted under his avatar. It just hits me a bit off, somehow, what you've gleaned from his first post.

I believe men do what suits them at the time sexually and don't 'turn' out of frustration. In my considerable experience no amount of "good head" is going to make a heterosexual guy "settle" for head from another man. The whole "turning gay" thing per se is an unnerving concept. How can "feeling gay and engaging in sex with men be two different things"? I realize full well that many gay men don't act on their homosexuality. Is that what you mean? Or do you speak of this recent phenomenon of the metrosexual (so-called)?

Perhaps I'm off but I think that part of your post is disturbing to those of us who happen to wear the appendage.

Thanks, Richard

Richard,

First, you are responding to a post that's over a year old!

Okay, sure. There's no such thing as women who turn to other women for sex after they've been sexually abused, that's just not real. No such thing as guys who get sick to death of putting up with women and our constantly making them jump through hoops to get sex, that's not real either. Clearly you speak for all gay men everywhere.

I posted this elsewhere more recently and several gay guys gave me props for understanding this- yours is not the only point of view. I didn't mean to insinuate that all men "become gay" this way, just that I've talked to more than one very large sized guy who said it was just easier to get men to deal with it than women. If that's not your perspective, it doesn't mean it's untrue for everyone.

 

[Freddie53]

Richard,

First, you are responding to a post that's over a year old!

Okay, sure. There's no such thing as women who turn to other women for sex after they've been sexually abused, that's just not real. No such thing as guys who get sick to death of putting up with women and our constantly making them jump through hoops to get sex, that's not real either. Clearly you speak for all gay men everywhere.

I posted this elsewhere more recently and several gay guys gave me props for understanding this- yours is not the only point of view. I didn't mean to insinuate that all men "become gay" this way, just that I've talked to more than one very large sized guy who said it was just easier to get men to deal with it than women. If that's not your perspective, it doesn't mean it's untrue for everyone.

First, Welcome ba ck Jana!
Jana is correct. In dealing with emotions the words always and never are going to be wrong. Only in the science field in dealing with scientific facts will those kind of words be true.

It may be so that four out of five men will do a particular thing. That doesn't consitute all men. One exception makes always incorrect.

 

[B_Stronzo]

Richard,

First, you are responding to a post that's over a year old!

I know. I only noticed that after I'd responded. :redface:

Okay, sure. There's no such thing as women who turn to other women for sex after they've been sexually abused, that's just not real. No such thing as guys who get sick to death of putting up with women and our constantly making them jump through hoops to get sex, that's not real either.

If this is sarcasm as I trust it is Jana, it's duly noted.

Clearly you speak for all gay men everywhere.

Come on Jana. I like you. 'Clearly' I don't. The defensive tone was unwarranted.

I posted this elsewhere more recently and several gay guys gave me props for understanding this- yours is not the only point of view.

I never meant to suggest it was. It's simply mine.

I didn't mean to insinuate that all men "become gay" this way, just that I've talked to more than one very large sized guy who said it was just easier to get men to deal with it than women.

Well! In that case I sit corrected and kindly provide me their addresses and telephone numbers in private message. I'm willing to defray all costs and we can get right to business. :wink:

If that's not your perspective, it doesn't mean it's untrue for everyone.

Jana it is my perspective. I don't mean to suggest anything other than there was a sort of settling for "let some dude give me head" quality to the piece I took from context. That's the only thing to which I truly took exception. And no, I would never suggest my 'perspective' is true 'for everyone'. I'm simply noting my experience firsthand.

And I agree with the previous poster. Good to have you back!

R.

 

[madame_zora]

Richard, when you know me better hopefully you'll understand where I'm coming from better too. I have no wish to disparage anyone's lifestyle, their choices, decisions, whatever. Sometimes it surprises me that people assume that everyone else thinks like them, or experiences life in the same manner from the same perspective. Take us for example, most of my experiences with men are either straight men or predominantly straight men, so if some of these told me it was easier to get good head from a guy than a girl because of their size, that wouldn't surprise you, would it?

I made no comment on the gay community or what makes men gay, only that I personally knew some large men who said it was easier to get sex and head from men. That's all, I didn't understand why you chose to take offense at that. It's not like it isn't common knowledge.

 

[B_Stronzo]

Richard, when you know me better hopefully you'll understand where I'm coming from better too.


I made no comment on the gay community or what makes men gay, only that I personally knew some large men who said it was easier to get sex and head from men. That's all, I didn't understand why you chose to take offense at that. It's not like it isn't common knowledge.

Jana, first off I made an observation based on the content of your post. That's all. When something "hits" me as off... well sometimes it simply is. That's how that referenced piece hit me. It's not my intent to split hairs Janna but I think any proponance of "they had to resort to men" is a dangerous one. That's how I took your post whether you intended it or not.

And for the record it's not 'common knowledge' from any source I've encountered. And I certainly don't think everyone else thinks as I do. That was a trifle condescending.

Beyond that I think we've covered that we don't agree on this point. No, I don't 'speak for all gay men' but I do speak for this one. I attempted to lighten things up with my last post - since you decided to get defensive about things - by not taking a similar tone with you. If you'd simply like me to blanketly agree with you state so without equivocation and I'll see if I can oblige. I can't promise anything.

 

[hotnmpls2000@yahoo.com]

If it isn't common knowledge, it's certainly common sense.

 

[B_Stronzo]

If it isn't common knowledge, it's certainly common sense.

Again. As is the case when I speak, you only speak for yourself and not all gay men 'honmpls'.