What is my Gay/Straight % ratio?

[spanky1998]

I am a 36 year old married man (to a beautiful woman) with 2 children. I am considered to be very goodlooking to both sexes. Tell me what my gay to straight ratio is according to the following:
1. Never had any type of physical sexual contact with a male (no kissing, fondling, sucking or fucking.) 2. I have only thought of men while jacking off.
3. Have been married for 12 years and only had sex with my wife under 20 times. I tried to in the begining but she kinda lost interest in sex with me after (while being 8 months pregnant) found my stash of 40 gay porno mags. We last had sex 3 years ago when my 2 year old was concieved.
3. I was raised without a father, so I was never exposed to typically straight male interests. Therefore, I love old movies, fashion, art, and everthing else my mother was into.
4. Due to the above, I am kinda feminine in my way of behaving. Not flaming, but act and kinda talk like my mother.
5. I am only atracted to older hairy masculine men. I guess a father type of replacement.
6. After not seeing my father for 22 years (last saw him when I was 4), I whent to visit him in TX and one night after getting really drunk together, he hit on me. ( This to be discussed in more detal later) Anyway, I did not allow it to happen and have not seen him in 6 years. However, (this maybe kinda sick) I have had sexual fantasies involving him ever since.
7. I am addicted to gay porn and spend 3-4 hours per day searching gay porn on the net.

 

[ZOS23xy]

I guess time will tell for you on this. I'm amazed, that you would only have sex 20 or so times in a marriage that has persisted for this length of time.

You needs some kind of talk and reflection for some people (here, I guess) and some professional help to either make you understand what has happened, what you expect, what you need, what you want and what your wife and kid should expect and need and want.

Yes, you sound gay, and you sound like you tried to do "what was expected of you", but not what you wanted.

Write back.

 

[Runco]

Did your wife know, going into the marriage, that you had homosexual leanings?

 

[deleted15807]

Yeah you should seek professional help. It sounds like you have a LOT going on. Do not worry about percentages. Sounds like a lot of chaos in your life and you should stabilize the ship before naming your destination.

 

[ManlyBanisters]

I agree with sargon - putting a number on it is the least of your worries and certainly what any of us might think about your sexuality is pretty meaningless.

I hope you find someone you can talk to - I hope you find some help reading here.

 

[nashboy]

i agree...you should def see a therapist. its really great to be who you are...but there are lot of people that could be hurt in this situation bc of it. thats why i hate societys view on gay people....then it forces people to stay in the closet and later it all comes out worse. good luck man...keep us posted.

 

[dreamer20]

I am a 36 year old married, am considered to be very good looking ...
1. Never had any type of physical sexual contact with a male (no kissing, fondling, sucking or fucking.)
I have only had sex with my wife under 20 times...but she kinda lost interest in sex with me after (she) found my stash of 40 gay porno mags.

I was raised without a father
I love old movies, fashion, art and everything else my mother was into.
I am attracted to older hairy masculine men.

After seeing my father in TX (6 years ago) after getting really drunk together, he hit on me. Anyway, I did not allow it to happen and have not seen him in 6 years. However, (this maybe kinda sick) I have had sexual fantasies involving him ever since.
7. I am addicted to gay porn and spend 3-4 hours per day searching gay porn on the net.

spanky1998 I'll leave the labeling of your self as straight, gay or bisexual up to you.

Although you are not having sex with your wife, the whole of your sexual activities, including erotic dreams and waking sexual fantasies and daydreams, is called your sex life. There are parts of your sex life which are troubling to you and your wife which need to be addressed.
Your father is physically attractive to you, but keep your fantasies about him to yourself do not act on them.
Your wife is aware that gay porn interests you. Can she accept this as part of your sex life or not? Will you tell her of your addiction? You should seek help for your porn addiction and marriage counselling too.

Pornography addiction - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

 

[B_Think_Kink]

That is the great thing about being human, you can have a fluid sexuality and have sex with whatever gender you please. Peace.

 

[D_Rod Staffinbone]

it took a lot of courage to post this, i know it must have.
am curious as to what your tipping point was / is to finally post,
as this was your first post, and an important one for you.

it will be ok. it will take time. you need to be strong to get through this.

you can private message me if you want.

good luck and best wishes,

offroad

 

[spanky1998]

Okay.... Well, I guess I sound kinda fucked up? Check this out: * I have never had a. substance abuse problem
* I have never been arrested
* I am an attorney from a top. 10 law school * I have 2 BA's 1 MA and a JD * I speak 4 languages fluently * I have lived in 4 countries * I was a personal trainer in the early 90's and modled for Claude Montana in Vouge Hommes in 1988 and yes I have a dick larger than 7 inches. However, I am or was, still am, way too vain. I am terrified of getting old and loosing my looks. Therefore, in the last 3 years I have had 2 hair transplants, liposuction of thighs, back, sides, neck. Botox, restalayne, veneers and expensive creams. Total so far 47K.. I am a shopaholic, did steroids in the early 90's (hence the hair lossa) codepedant, have ADD, a closet smoker. Shit! I have just come out naked too you all. Oh, I hate posers, wana be's and liars. You guys, I am not a sad closet case. I have just not met any man since 1994 who was worth spilling my jizz on. He was the one real pasionate love of my life. We never had sex, but it was the most passionate love affair. Now he was fucked up.! But what a body and never have I met a more masculine man in my life. He told me that he could not live with out me. But his father forced him to stop talking to me. I have never been so devestated. He's married and living in Indiana. I should call him. Enough... I really do sound crazy now. I don't give a shit. I am who I am. Oh, don't feel bad about my wife. Believe me I am the perfect man for her. Any other man would have dvorced her years ago. She is hot. A wet dream to any straight man. 5 ft 4 97 lbs, 34DD (implants) makes more than me, looks like a movie star and dresses like one (thanks to me) but completely not into sex. I would fuck her if she was into it. Anyway, I just want to meet a cool dude who is smart and not a freak! Peace and happyness to all....

 

[Xcuze]

You say I am who I am but that seems to be your problem; you dont know who you are! You use terms that I only know gay people to know or use. Then you boast about aspects of your life as though you feel a need to impress. Your wife being hot is irrelevant. Im confused by your motives for posting this. Ive always assumed sexuality was entirely instinctive. Your dick should give you an indication of how attracted you are to someone; if its pointing north then you wanna hit it. Lets not complicate things. Its only social conformity that clouds the issue. This is where your real problem probably lies. Maybe you just dont have the balls to be your real self?

 

[D_Bob_Crotchitch]

I am 100% straight/ 100% gay. Figure that one out peeps.

 

[Xcuze]

I am 100% straight/ 100% gay. Figure that one out peeps.

Youre a screwed up trans?

 

[D_Bob_Crotchitch]

Youre a screwed up trans?

:lmao: I don't believe in labels or percentages. Humans are constantly changing beings. If they aren't, they've stagnated and stopped living.

 

[Xcuze]

:lmao: I don't believe in labels or percentages. Humans are constantly changing beings. If they aren't, they've stagnated and stopped living.

Agreed. But Im 100% certain I could never lick a pussy. If that makes me stagnant then so be it.

 

[B_625girth]

20 times in 12 years??? me and the wife used to fuck that much in a week easy. sheesh!!! maybe cause I'm straight, I don't have to debate on which way I want to go to have sex. so I'm banging that pussy while you 60/40, 50/50, 30/70 dudes are still trying to make up your mind.

 

[Xcuze]

20 times in 12 years??? me and the wife used to fuck that much in a week easy. sheesh!!! maybe cause I'm straight, I don't have to debate on which way I want to go to have sex. so I'm banging that pussy while you 60/40, 50/50, 30/70 dudes are still trying to make up your mind.

Im just grateful you didnt advise him to see a therapist like all the other misguided souls on this thread He needs to fuck a therapist not speak to one. Preferably an older male one by the sounds of it! If he likes the taste then its problem solved.

 

[tom water]

100% gay in love with himself, and better do something before is too late, at least try it once! relastin and creams don't work when you'll be old, and you don't want to realize that when is too late. If you like so much a cock... try it!

 

[Notaguru2]

Honestly? You're a 100%er. Look, you don't even talk about whether you are attracted to your wife or not. You speak of sex as some sort of means to reproduction. Everything else is about gay porn and whacking off to men.

Do your wife a favor; divorce her and let her find the man she thought she was marrying and go find you a partner (the man you want).

If she's only had sex with you less than 20 times in 12 years... other men have been tapping it to fill that void for her on an emotional/physical level. Why else do you think she hasn't left?

Seriously, you're 100% gay; be proud and make it known (btw, she also knows - she's waiting on you to make a move).

 

[spanky1998]

Boy you guys are harsh!! The so called 100 percent straight are full of shit. No straight guy would join lpsg. I would never join big tit support group. If you are in this group you want to look at cock, hook up or meet other confused dudes like myself. I am bieng honest. Who the hell am trying to impress? No one here knows me, if I wanted to make shit up I could do a much better job. It would be more interesting. For the queers (I use the term with endearment) most you circut guys are either high on drugs, bitter about life, liars, manipulators, jealous beings who live their lives selfously for the moment until they are too old (40) to hook anymore. I have been to many gay clubs and have become more than aware that I could never be with you. So, don't be hating on me bitches!!!!