Im conservative and i hate it too. My brother lived a lie for many years thinking thats what we all wanted to see. Maybe some of the family would prefer it that way, but most of us in the family knew what his preferences were. Dad may have been disappointed, but why prolong the inevitable.
We were raised in a very religious household, i consider myself christian. But watching the anguish my brother endured not just from peers, family, society in general, it just kills me to think about it.
I want him to be happy, even if its not a lifestyle choice i'd personally make. I wish he would have came out many many years prior, didnt feel like he had to marry and make kids and then run off like that. He belonged with a man from the very beginning and really damaged his exwife and children over the whole deal.
My brother ran off 6 years ago, no one knows where he is or if he's ok. He was very premuscious and not careful about it. We all fear the worse. I cant help but feel responsible for not taking him by the collar and saying "Come out damnit! Dont supress this and let it destroy you!"
I had to get that off my chest. I just miss him very much. Even if he wasnt a good person in general, he's still my brother and i see the pain he was in.