Relationship 1: On again/off again. He was an eliteist, and no matter what I did, I was never going to be good enough for him (He was in banking, I was a mechanic working up through the ranks). I was no angel in this relationship, as he was very clingy and after repeated attempts to get him to quit suffocating me, I ended things. We got back together 6 months later, but he was very bitter and was a complete asshole to me, even though I did everything in the world to try to satisfy him. When I'd finally had enough and quit answering his every beckon call, he started softening up a bit, but it was too late at that point. I couldn't let go of the hell he put me through, and we eventually broke up. I was 24 and he was 20, so I think immaturity on both parts played a role in this. I definitely consider this a failure, because I wanted nothing to do with anything related to sex or romance for a couple of years afterwards. Results: FAILURE
Relationship 2: If you want to call this a relationship, anyways. I met him when I was 28 and he was 19. (I don't want to hear about the whole age difference thing, I've heard about this REPEATEDLY over the years). It started off as just sex, but he expressed an interest in dating, so I accepted. He yanked me around and I was constantly on an emotional roller coaster for several months. He's very manipulative and I gave him a lot of money that nearly sent me into bankruptcy. We had a nasty split and didn't talk for 2 years. I loved him from the time I met him, and still do to this day. He resurfaced in 2008 and we started talking again. More emotional roller coaster, and more money is what he wanted, and of course I caved in and gave him some, but not nearly as much as I did in the past. In another thread on here, a poster described this guy to a "T" when making a comment about being a Sociopath. After reading his description, then researching the term, I realized that this is entirely him. As much as he claims to (or claims to have in the past) love me, I'm nothing more to him than a source of money, and a pawn. That's a harsh truth to face, because he's the one and only person that I've ever truly loved. I never got "over" him, even though he doesn't deserve my love. Results: FAILURE
Relationship 3: I met him a year after Sociopath and I split up. He was very charming, very smart, artistic, intelligent, and was exactly what I looked for in a guy. After just under 2 months of dating, he moved in with me. Shortly after that, he lost his job, and remained unemployed through the next two months. I was stressed, as all of my money was used up because he no longer had an income. I had an opportunity to move to Seattle to take a job with MUCH better pay, and he was excited to do so. I went to Seattle and found a place to live, came back a week later, and things were fine. A few weeks later, I found out that he had cheated on me while I was gone, and fucked some random guy IN OUR BED (that's inherently wrong, in my opinion). I immediately ended things with him and threw him out. I still moved to Seattle, but he didn't go with me. I later found out that, literally, EVERYTHING he ever told me was an elaborate series of lies and deceit. Nothing he ever told me was true, and I honestly don't think he ever loved me. Results: FAILURE
Obviously, I have a horrible track record with relationships. I've never had what one would call a "good" relationship, but I honestly don't think it should be as hard as it has been in all three of my relationships. It'll be a long time before I attempt to get involved with anyone, though, as I'm currently working with professionals to find out why I attract these types of people, and why I let them do what they do to me.
Sorry for the novel.