So, for me, the turning point and realization was when I messed around with a friend of mine when we were both in college. Before I go further, let me step back a bit. In all honesty I didn't "discover" the term bisexuality until I was in college - for me it was either you were gay or you were straight. Period. Growing up as a teen in the early to mid 1980s and going to school I couldn't understand why I was attracted to both sexes. It was like there was this tug of war within me where I was on a wall and the gay side was trying to pull me over and at the same time the straight side was trying to pull me over - it didn't make sense. I felt pretty confused. I'd always had an interest in girls and had girlfriends, but my eyes also landed on the boys as well. I can actually pinpoint the period in my life where I developed a crush an another boy (he in 6th grade, me in 5th). I guess you could say that's when the fire first sparked. Fast forward to the early 1990s and I'm in college / university. Technology was rapidly changing and, with the help of satellite tv (my parents had one of those huge satellite antenna dishes), porn started to become more readily available. If the fire had been sparked way back when, it was now burning bright blue. Once I had my first sexual experience and admitted to myself that I was bi, I really felt more at peace with myself - it was like the proverbial heavy weight had been lifted off my shoulders.
What Made You Realise You Were Bi Rather Than Just Bi Curious Or Straight?
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So, for me, the turning point and realization was when I messed around with a friend of mine when we were both in college. Before I go further, let me step back a bit. In all honesty I didn't "discover" the term bisexuality until I was in college - for me it was either you were gay or you were straight. Period. Growing up as a teen in the early to mid 1980s and going to school I couldn't understand why I was attracted to both sexes. It was like there was this tug of war within me where I was on a wall and the gay side was trying to pull me over and at the same time the straight side was trying to pull me over - it didn't make sense. I felt pretty confused. I'd always had an interest in girls and had girlfriends, but my eyes also landed on the boys as well. I can actually pinpoint the period in my life where I developed a crush an another boy (he in 6th grade, me in 5th). I guess you could say that's when the fire first sparked. Fast forward to the early 1990s and I'm in college / university. Technology was rapidly changing and, with the help of satellite tv (my parents had one of those huge satellite antenna dishes), porn started to become more readily available. If the fire had been sparked way back when, it was now burning bright blue. Once I had my first sexual experience and admitted to myself that I was bi, I really felt more at peace with myself - it was like the proverbial heavy weight had been lifted off my shoulders.
This is actually a really good question. I had always had a curious side for many many years, occasionally watch gay porn, but it wasn’t until I matured in my early 30s that I knew it was becoming way confronting and it was so difficult to suppress it. This grew and grew in the last 2 years to the point it was just too hard to contain. Like it was literally like letting demon out, so to speak. Hence 7 weeks ago I finally took the plunge. It was 55000x more than I ever imagined. The issue is now where do I go from here. I want the wife and kids, yet I want to suck cock all day long. Quite opposing things. I understand I am up for a very confusing life, but it is how it is. Happy to chat to others who are in the same boat. Would actually appreciate having others to chat with and bounce ideas offf and such 
Always thought I was gay until I had a relationship with a women.
I’m still very conflicted. I’m not a fan of labels either. It for sure started out as a curiosity and when I took the plunge I kept going back. But for me, I’m way more interested in the big penis than the guy itself. I’m not attracted to men physically and have 0 intentions of doing anything else besides playing with a big one. But of course, I am in a relationship and would love to be married and start a family. My attraction is for sure on females but I am a sucker for big dick as well.
I am lukky martied with mine secound wife. After a priod off ED i am sexual active as before. With mine wife. Last month's i noticed i look at handsome woman and MAN. But i had also sex with a frind off me i now for years. He is single and we all now he is gay. We have touched ouer hard dicks and i let him masturbate me. That was a nice experience.
For me it is to far to help him comming and going in is no option for me.
For me it is to far to help him comming and going in is no option for me.
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I had sex with girls and it is great but the male body is wonderful and the first time I got to feel one next , on, touch a male naked body was when I called myself bi. the masculinity the smell and the dick and balls made my decision
I'm just sexual, and as far back as I remember (i.e., looking at my dad's Playboy, Penthouse magazines, etc) being turned on looking at couples going at it. I wanted to see the hard cocks and yea, the women who were in the couples pictorials getting nailed.
IDK, during my college years is when I realized I am bi if I had to pinpoint a time in my life for that.
IDK, during my college years is when I realized I am bi if I had to pinpoint a time in my life for that.
yep, I also had access to my dad's Playboys and Penthouse magazines. Penthouse seemed to be a bit more explicit with their pictures and I was glad to see that they did incorporate guys into the shoots getting in on with the women - so for me that was a bonus (this happened some time in my late teenage years). My dad did have a couple of Hustler magazines as well and those seem to be a bit more sexual graphic than Playboy and Penthouse. I also had the added benefit of my parents getting one of those large satellite dishes. There was this one satellite that had this channel called American Exxxtasy and that gave me a lot to look at!
Dude! My buddies and I used to watch American Exxxstacy using his Dad’s huge satellite dish as a kid! I was always giddy to spend Friday nights at his house watching fucking like I’d never seen. I was intoxicated by it all. Lol.
Regarding the post - I honestly believe that getting turned on is a primal feeling we can’t control. For me, if I see someone that catches my eye, I don’t necessarily think “is it a woman or man”. I just feel this rush of hormones coursing through me at first. It’s like I’ve had a hit of a drug. Then I wonder, why him or her? Out of all the people in a room, why am I staring at him or her? my point is that our sexuality is not binary. For someone to say otherwise is lying or in denial of the fact that we all find beauty in both sexes- it’s just to what degree physically and emotionally we bond with that sex. I fell in love with a woman and proceeded to have mind blowing sex for years. For me personally I have always known deep down inside that I needed a woman in my life both emotionally and sexually. I don’t understand why, it just is. I feel whole. I have never felt that way with a dude. And yet I still have sexual feelings for men. Primal “ I want to fuck you “ feelings. But I’ve never had a same sex long term relationship that has made me feel whole. I have many same-sex married friends who say the opposite. They found a “wholeness” in being with someone of their own sex as a partner for life. But they still have feelings for the opposite sex.
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with me it was my Junior in in college. I had sex with my room mate sealed it for me.
My best high school friend and I were both into wrestling for our high school team. We both did pretty good, with him probably being a bit better than me. I was a weight class up from him, so we never had a match, but my guess is we would have been equal.
One night we got wrestling around in my parent's basement. I threatened to de-pants him and I did. If he would have wanted to resist, there is no way I could have gotten his pants off and see his cock! He allowed me to do the deed. All I did was look at it.
Going back, I would have played with it and made him cum! Too stupid at the time to read what was possible and right in front of my face. Regrets are a bitch and jerk material these days!
One night we got wrestling around in my parent's basement. I threatened to de-pants him and I did. If he would have wanted to resist, there is no way I could have gotten his pants off and see his cock! He allowed me to do the deed. All I did was look at it.
Going back, I would have played with it and made him cum! Too stupid at the time to read what was possible and right in front of my face. Regrets are a bitch and jerk material these days!
Ah! Glad to know I'm not alone in having watched this as a teen! Satellite T1 - channel 18. I had that burned into my mind. Actually, I should backtrack a bit. My exposure to real video porn was a bit earlier. Mind you, I had seen some titillating stuff on Cinemax when I was like 11 / 12, but what I was about to see would be much more explicit. When my family moved down to Texas in 1982 my dad, through various contacts where he worked (I'm assuming) got his hands on this this big brown box that had this little silver button on the top. What I would soon learn is that there was this thing called over the air microwave TV - i.e. a pay tv - and it was for this service called Vue TV. Their programming was a bit odd, if I recall. They wouldn't start showing stuff until 6p and then would go on until 1a or 2. After 10pm they would start showing soft core porn movies. Not much in the way of seeing guys dicks, but you sure got a eyeful of pussy, tits and ass.
About a year (or less) later, he came home with this very small black metallic box that had a dial in the front. Again, this too was a pay TV service utilizing a microwave antenna. When you turned the dial to the right, you were turning it on and you'd hear an audible click on the box letting you know you'd turned it on - also, the little red light was a dead give away as well. Once on, you'd tune in to the signal to get a clear picture. This was OnTV and the porn they showed blew what Vue TV showed out of the water! I mean, they showed it all. I saw some great porn and as a horny 13/14 year old this fit the bill! Like Vue TV, the porn didn't start until after 10p and went so late as I think 3am. It was usually late on Fri & Sat night that I would sneak out into the den to turn it on and then go back to my room to watch it all. There were times when I could watch it out in the den, but I didn't get to do that too much.
It was when I was like around 18 / 19 that my parents got the big satellite dish after dumping cable. Pretty much everything on satellite at that time was unscrambled. I loved seeing the wild news feeds, being able to watch shows before they even aired, watching stuff from the west coast, etc. But American Exxxtacy was the thing. It was there that I actually saw my first bi video (1 woman, 2 guys) and even saw a bit of gay porn on there as well. Ah....a sexual trip down memory lane.
Ha Ha. Sounds very familiar!! In my case it was my buddy’s house so I didn’t have the freedom to sneak down anytime I wanted to watch and jack off. But it truly was a buffet of sexual delights!! I had never seen a dick pound a pussy until I watched that channel. Never seen lesbians fuck. Never seen hardcore group fucking. Never seen MMF and frankly didn’t know what I was watching when I saw it. But it was hot hot hot!!. I would always go home afterward and jack off in bed thinking about what I watched. The get up the next morning and jack off again in the shower. Then get bored in the afternoon and jack off again. Ah to be young and insanely horny again.
Still, to this day, I can remember seeing this one video that just got me hard as diamonds. There was none of that crappy music, but it was a pretty good side close up of the guys dick slowly penetrating the woman's pussy and how he would slowly go in and out. Jesus...that was incredible.
With me it was when I went from a few hand jobs to oral then anal I knew. I was never really attracted to the person more his mid section and what it represented to me and what it did to calm the battle that raged in my head... I knew after that first blow job I wanted to do it again and again. I’d read the stories in penthouse forum and go and try to perform what I had read to make myself a better partner... i did hate the guilt side of it in the beginning when I’d cum which was stupid but it happened Time and time again I’d feel ashamed so I stopped getting off when I was with him or them and would wait for them to leave before I released... good times
“The battle that raged in my head”....that rings very true man. I could not understand why most of my buddies were only into women (or at least said they were). And I’d see a hot guy go by and my legs would buckle. And then I’d see a gorgeous female babe and I’d melt. I felt confused until I realized that we all feel that way to some extent (even if some don’t want to admit it). More importantly I realized later in life that it’s actually a beautiful gift to see the beauty in both sexes to the degree that someone who identifies as “bi” (hate labels but it is what it is) sees them. Not everyone is given that perspective. So celebrate it man!!
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I was 17 years old and I knew I fancied girls and boys... I knew what straight was and also what gay was but none of it quite seemed to marry.
One afternoon I found myself browsing the magazines in the newsagents when my eyes alighted on the cover of an interiors magazine. On the cover was a (plush) bedroom and on the middle of the large bed was a young (handsome) man looking back to the camera and sleeping on either side of him was the figures of a woman and another man.
And I remember just staring at this magazine for what seemed like for ever... and then... total lightbulb moment
That's what describes me.
Within 18 months I had a live-in bf & gf (it was a total car crash but that's another story ).
Let me just say that I'm fully bisexual but I have noticed certain boundaries. For instance I like my men to be men and my women to be women, not fussed by gender-bending, cross dressing, TV/TS, androgynous types &c &c. Also; not particularly fussed by dicks, tbh. Seen one, you've seen 'em all.
One afternoon I found myself browsing the magazines in the newsagents when my eyes alighted on the cover of an interiors magazine. On the cover was a (plush) bedroom and on the middle of the large bed was a young (handsome) man looking back to the camera and sleeping on either side of him was the figures of a woman and another man.
And I remember just staring at this magazine for what seemed like for ever... and then... total lightbulb moment
That's what describes me.
Within 18 months I had a live-in bf & gf (it was a total car crash but that's another story
).Let me just say that I'm fully bisexual but I have noticed certain boundaries. For instance I like my men to be men and my women to be women, not fussed by gender-bending, cross dressing, TV/TS, androgynous types &c &c. Also; not particularly fussed by dicks, tbh. Seen one, you've seen 'em all.
I was 17 years old and I knew I fancied girls and boys... I knew what straight was and also what gay was but none of it quite seemed to marry.
One afternoon I found myself browsing the magazines in the newsagents when my eyes alighted on the cover of an interiors magazine. On the cover was a (plush) bedroom and on the middle of the large bed was a young (handsome) man looking back to the camera and sleeping on either side of him was the figures of a woman and another man.
And I remember just staring at this magazine for what seemed like for ever... and then... total lightbulb moment
That's what describes me.
Within 18 months I had a live-in bf & gf (it was a total car crash but that's another story
Let me just say that I'm fully bisexual but I have noticed certain boundaries. For instance I like my men to be men and my women to be women, not fussed by gender-bending, cross dressing, TV/TS, androgynous types &c &c. Also; not particularly fussed by dicks, tbh. Seen one, you've seen 'em all.
As a fellow bisexual man, I agree. I am not into flamboyant men. I want a dude to be a dude. I want them to grunt and moan and smell musky and just be a masculine man. Not saying there is anything wrong at all with guys who are a bit more in touch with their feminine side. More power to them!!! Im just stating my preference which is a guy to look straight but isn’t straight. For women, my preferences are all over the place. Generally speaking though, I find that women who are more in touch with their sexuality and are vocal about it (i.e. are horny as hell - for example: fucking make me beg to fuck them and in turn beg for my cock) to be far more attractive than women who tease, have fake tits, and pretend to be turned on. I want my women to squirt because they are so fucking turned on. I will blow my load just at the site of a moment like that.
The hardest part about being Bi is trying to reconcile my attraction for both sexes particularly if I’m out with primarily straight dudes or primarily gay dudes. If I’m out with primarily straight dudes, it’s really hard to admit in front of them that I find a dude hot as want to suck him off in the bathroom bar. If I’m out with a bunch of primarily gay dudes, I feel uncomfortable to say I find a woman to be hot and want to stick my face in their chest.
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Fuck 'em, that's their problem.
Tbh I have had far more shit from gays than I've ever had from straights, but there we go, so much for inclusion.
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