this is really fucking annoying. i cant sleep because of sexual tension. years ago two of my friends and i humped each other. anyway, here i am now, the only one who turned in anyway gay, still wanting to finish what we started; ultimately i want to get gang banged by my two friends. now, i'm pretty much 50/50, but i have 70/30 on here because after i come after thinking about something gay i always think 'why did i do that its not what i really what'. yet, everything that leads up to that my heart is racing, uncontrollable urges, etc. for example, just yesterday one of my friends who i really want to do stuff with texts me and he sends me a picture of two girls kissing. not a bad picture, kind of wished he had sent a picture of a girl getting double teamed but seriously, as soon as i saw i got a text message from him my heart started racing and i starting getting hard. okay, thats cool, but why do i get so worked up over this and go crazy over something i don't want after i come ONLY TO WANT IT AGAIN? am i in denile? i dont know, because i comfortably acknowledge to myself i'm bisexual. but, what the fuck is going on here. confused.