what the fuck is wrong?

Discussion in 'Relationships, Discrimination, and Jealousy' started by johnjacobs, Sep 27, 2009.

  1. johnjacobs

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    this is really fucking annoying. i cant sleep because of sexual tension. years ago two of my friends and i humped each other. anyway, here i am now, the only one who turned in anyway gay, still wanting to finish what we started; ultimately i want to get gang banged by my two friends. now, i'm pretty much 50/50, but i have 70/30 on here because after i come after thinking about something gay i always think 'why did i do that its not what i really what'. yet, everything that leads up to that my heart is racing, uncontrollable urges, etc. for example, just yesterday one of my friends who i really want to do stuff with texts me and he sends me a picture of two girls kissing. not a bad picture, kind of wished he had sent a picture of a girl getting double teamed but seriously, as soon as i saw i got a text message from him my heart started racing and i starting getting hard. okay, thats cool, but why do i get so worked up over this and go crazy over something i don't want after i come ONLY TO WANT IT AGAIN? am i in denile? i dont know, because i comfortably acknowledge to myself i'm bisexual. but, what the fuck is going on here. confused.
     
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    Thanks for sharing :) I'm 100% gay (though I do sometimes have thoughts of being with women for physical reasons, but mostly for the companionship), so I can't really comment on being bisexual. I think it's natural to have feelings and sexual thoughts about friends, and I think it's easier to have feelings for your friends because you feel comfortable around them. And since you mentioned that you guys once 'humped each other', you should think about if that actually meant something more. If you really feel that your friends, like you, aren't 100% straight... then just see where it goes. There's no need to rush things. I assume you haven't been with any guys at all, so I think that also contributes to your sexual tension. I don't think it's denial since you seem quite comfortable with your 50-50/70-30 orientation... :) Are you attracted to other guys, other than your two friends?
    I hope you work things out. Don't scare your mates off!
     
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    sounds like at some level, you're not comfortable

    or

    you're just not getting any, and frustrated about it

    wish I could be more helpful
     
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    thanks for the response. i havent really done anything with a guy. i got blown by a friend back in high school but that was it AND the only guys i want to do stuff with for sure now haven't been necessarily cooperative, SO FAR. i'm gonna text my friend later today about something and see where it takes me.

    two things to add here. one)i wouldnt say i'm attracted to guys. but i do watch gay porn and am particular when it comes to gay porn; i like watching guys that resemble my appearance plus some, eg. for me to be interested in the porn the guys gotta look at least like me or bigger (i have a swimmer's build, but i lift a lot and i like body builders) and with a cock at least my size or more (i'm definitely a size king). and now two) i'm kinda curious what would happen if i got really drunk and took on my two friends. i've had horrible cases of liquor dick many times before so i'm curious if i would get hard or not when i'm really drunk fucking around with guy friends - considering i cant sleep tonight because i'm so sexually tensed thinking about my friends.
     
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    i think it might be a combination of the two. i'd say more so not getting any. lately i wouldn't even be able to get play from an alien if i tried!
     
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    kinda hard to believe from your pics:biggrin1:, but good luck!
     
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    There is nothing wrong with you. Sorry it is so complicated. Follow through with your feelings, but be safe.
     
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    thanks guys!
     
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    Like someone else said, it's easier to get attached to friends than it would be some random guy/girl. You're already comfortable with them, and you feel socially accepted on some level by them. It could be a case of infatuation other than a deep meanful feeling of love. Take some Nyquil and try to get some sleep, worrying about it won't help, trust me, I've been there.
     
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    It sounds to me like you need to get laid. Your friends are a dead end in that respect and even if you did manage to get one of them in the sack it would get all complicated and icky, so stop fixating on them and find yourself some hot guy who's actually attracted to you ( preferably not one of your friends ) who you can get nasty with. You'll be so tired after boffing like beasts sleeping wont be a problem :wink:
     
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    ROFL, well said.
     
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    why don't young people jerk off to get to sleep like we did in the old days? That's what I want to know.
     
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    hahahahahahah
     
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    Hey I meant it with humour, but I still meant it :biggrin1: You need some hot dick and preferably not one of your friend's dicks either.:wink:
     
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    :biggrin1:
     
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