misery loves company. lol... but seriously, i'm depressed when i think about the two people that i'm in love with leaving me. one is the girl who've i've had a crush on since high school. we were never that close in high school, she had a boyfriend and left the school before our 10th year. now, we've recently became great friends, and the feelings before have come right back to the surface....but then she got accepted to an ivy league college, and had to go, leaving me behind. she came back this summer for a short stay right before she has to go back away, and i won't see her again until Christmas. i want to tell her how i feel, but the long-distance thing between us probably wouldn't work, and i know she wouldn't be happy. plus, if i tell her how i feel and she doesn't feel the same way, the friendship i cherish will be shattered. and the other one is the boy next door who's been my closest male friend. we've always been close, and we still talk when we can even though our lives are going in two totally different directions. he's leaving me to go off to another college and i won't see him again until Christmas. even though we talk through e-mails like almost everyday, i'm still going to miss knowing that he's next door and that he's still around. i developed feelings for him too, but would NEVER say anything about it. i know he's straight. but i would even like to tell him how much he means to me as a friend, but the whole male awkwardness gets in the way. just feels crappy to have two people that i love leave me, and not being able to share how i truly feel about them. wow. just by writing this, i feel a little better. but enough about me, what's got you down?