10 months ....... at 30 I lost my wife, killed by a drunk driver and all thoughts of anything sexual and sexual needs disappeared.
How did the eventual orgasm happen ..... over those 10 months I had been given moral and mental support by a family we had been friends with for years during which time there had been supportive talk/chats on many subjects. Just before the end of my celibacy the wife, who had been my wife's best friend, over a few days gradually brought up the subject of frustration and how I was managing without sex, directly asking if I was masturbating .... I told her I was not frustrated, had not masturbated and hadn't even had a hard-on since loosing my wife --- but those conversation had somehow over the days 'kicked' my sexuality in and I did start feeling frustrated, by day 3 very frustrated and told her so. Her solution was that we had 'no strings sex' and despite her being the wife of a friend my conscience disappeared as quickly as my cock erected. On our first fuck I took ages to cum, to the point of wondering if I would, but then without any of my usual warning sign my cock got even bigger and my cum burst out .... and it wasn't a pleasant sensation, each spurt felt as if I was passing burning lead and she commented on hot it felt. There was a lot of it and when I pulled out and it oozed out it was a lot thicker than my usual cum. It hadn't been satisfying and I hadn't lost any of my hard-on and she made it clear that she wanted me to 'go again', so I did and unusual for a second time this time I came quicker and much more pleasurably and satisfying.
I did ask her if it had been a 'sympathy fuck' and she told me no, that she was also frustrated by her husbands lack of sexual attention, and something that whilst annoying me also egotistically pleased me - that my wife had told her how big my cock was she'd wondered what it would feel like and if she could 'take it'. She obviously could and liked it because we must have fucked over a dozen times over the next two days ..... and still occasionally do 19 years later.