Hey guys, I hope this is in the right place! I just wanted to rant a little and listen to a few of your perspectives, thoughts, and advice. I do not mean to offend anyone in this post.
I am a 21 year old college student and I identify myself as straight to all strangers, friends, and family. I personally look at myself as a little bi. But because of all of the labels out there I am afraid to identify as anything other than straight. I also live in the rural south which does not help! I hate that I find some man attractive but I cant help it!
The other night I was at a small party in my friends apartment for a birthday. It was about 8 of us there (all friends) and I was with one of my very good friends that is a lesbian named Taylor (she had her girlfriend there too). Nonetheless, it was a group that was very familiar to each other and accepting of others preferences.
The next thing you know two men show up and one was gay. Jared was very open about his homosexuality. I saw him make eye contact with me while we all were playing cards. And after the night was over at about 2am everyone had gone to bed and I receive a text message from an unknown number. To make a long story short, it was the gay man named Jared texting me and hitting on me. I did not know whether to be flattered or offended that Taylor had given him my number! He asked if I was interested or not and he wanted to cuddle ... I did not know how to respond. He did not want to get to know me, he just wanted to come over and cuddle (he said so). I didn't know what to do because I did not find him attractive at all and I don't like being affectionate with men but I wouldn't mind the sexual part.
This is the important part to my story:
I am strongly attracted to females and relationships with them. I want to be in a relationship with a woman. I also find men attractive that are studly, athletic, and very straight acting (exactly what I WANT to be) but I don't like scrawny twinks. I like nice buff bodies and big dicks. My attraction is more physical than it is emotional. I do not like to cuddle, make-out, hold hands with other men. Although, I don't mind if he sucks my dick or in extreme cases I might be the bottom never the top. The perfect idea for me of having fun with a guy would be just to do sexual things with him (if he was cute and has a big dick) but I want no relationship with him whatsoever except just a normal friend).
Soo what in the hell does this make me? What guy would ever want to mess with me if I don't wanna kiss him, cuddle with him, touch his dick or anything? Unless he is pleasing my dick then I'm not interested... What does this say about me? I would appreciate your input. Thanks for listening/reading!
I am a 21 year old college student and I identify myself as straight to all strangers, friends, and family. I personally look at myself as a little bi. But because of all of the labels out there I am afraid to identify as anything other than straight. I also live in the rural south which does not help! I hate that I find some man attractive but I cant help it!
The other night I was at a small party in my friends apartment for a birthday. It was about 8 of us there (all friends) and I was with one of my very good friends that is a lesbian named Taylor (she had her girlfriend there too). Nonetheless, it was a group that was very familiar to each other and accepting of others preferences.
The next thing you know two men show up and one was gay. Jared was very open about his homosexuality. I saw him make eye contact with me while we all were playing cards. And after the night was over at about 2am everyone had gone to bed and I receive a text message from an unknown number. To make a long story short, it was the gay man named Jared texting me and hitting on me. I did not know whether to be flattered or offended that Taylor had given him my number! He asked if I was interested or not and he wanted to cuddle ... I did not know how to respond. He did not want to get to know me, he just wanted to come over and cuddle (he said so). I didn't know what to do because I did not find him attractive at all and I don't like being affectionate with men but I wouldn't mind the sexual part.
This is the important part to my story:
I am strongly attracted to females and relationships with them. I want to be in a relationship with a woman. I also find men attractive that are studly, athletic, and very straight acting (exactly what I WANT to be) but I don't like scrawny twinks. I like nice buff bodies and big dicks. My attraction is more physical than it is emotional. I do not like to cuddle, make-out, hold hands with other men. Although, I don't mind if he sucks my dick or in extreme cases I might be the bottom never the top. The perfect idea for me of having fun with a guy would be just to do sexual things with him (if he was cute and has a big dick) but I want no relationship with him whatsoever except just a normal friend).
Soo what in the hell does this make me? What guy would ever want to mess with me if I don't wanna kiss him, cuddle with him, touch his dick or anything? Unless he is pleasing my dick then I'm not interested... What does this say about me? I would appreciate your input. Thanks for listening/reading!