When Did You Know You Were Gay?

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  1. jdcnow

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    Good evening, everybody; and a special Hello! to all the gay boys out there:wink:
    I hope you are having a wonderful evening, tonight. It's Friday night, here in the Northern Texas region, as I write this.

    May I please ask a personal question? When did you first know...you were conviced in your own mind, in your hear of hearts...that you were gay?

    For me, the seed was planted in first grade. I was 6 years old, and just as we were all just about to go indoors in school from recess, this boy, "Ryan," comes out of the blue and kisses me on the mouth. Of course being a 6 yr-old, I didn't know better at the time. I thought it was the grossest, nastiest, thing I had ever experienced in my life.

    FastForward to high school. The seed grew and flowered. High school band. I developed a good friendship with this boy, "Andrew". I played T-bone, he played quads (marching band drums) Well, take one pitch-dark lonely night LITERALLY out in the middle of no-where, add 2 teenage boys who have nothing better to do. It was the best night of my life. We kissed, we did each other. I still remeber him sucking me off, and I him. For the first time in my life, I truly felt loved and accepted that night. I am forever enriched by what Andrew brought to my life. Andrew, should you happen to find this...thanks bud. I can never repay you for the gift you have given me. Love, Joe.

    Anyone who is struggling with their sexuality, Read this:
    http://www.lpsg.org/young-and-hung/31803-im-gay.html?highlight=gay
    You may be struggling to come to terms with this.

    May I share something with you: At the time I write this, I'm 23 yrs-old, and - admittedly - I still struggle to a certain extent. But you know: life is easier if we struggle and fight together. You put your hand in my hand ... and in the hands of all the wonderful people here at LPSG Forum. You are far from alone.

    Know that you are loved and accepted. Here at LPSG, if no-where else.

    I just felt like somebody needed to read this, tonight. Needed a little love and acceptance. We all need a soft place to fall.

    Let's read your experiences of when you first knew you were gay.:smile: :biggrin1: :smile: :biggrin1:
     
  2. D_Elijah_MorganWood

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    I was 22 and a hot Playgirl model stuck his fat 9 inch cock in my mouth after he gave me a blowjob at the beach in his '67 Mustang convertible (with the top down). That did it. Dumped the bitch and hopped the fence (for the most part). We proceeded to have weekend rendevous for the next 3 months. I never did get the whole thing in my ass. DAMN he was hot.

    I had one prior experience when I was 19 and thought it was gross. Wrong guy.
     
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    When my best childhood friend said "hey wanna play with my pee pee?"

    And I said "Sure do! Show me!!":rolleyes: We were seven.

    Don't necessarily mean to be glib but I never had to struggle with it per se. I liked little girls "woo woos" too at the time.

    I was an equal opportunity horntoad.
     
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    I was 12. I came out two years later at 14.
     
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    It fully registered with me when I was 19 and fell head over heels in love with a man. Prior to that I just thought all guys masturbated to the naked pictures of other guys and gave blowjobs to married men and perverts hanging out at train and bus stations. Looking back it would have helped if my straightlaced family had told me that there was something called homosexuality Even after falling for that man and engaging in sexual activity with several men I was figuring to some day get married to a woman and do the family thing.
     
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    when i was 13, my best friend and i would have sleepovers, usually at his house. we felt each other in bed and i liked it. so did he. it escalated pretty quickly. and the rest is history.

    like stronzo, i also played "doctors office" with some of the girls when i was a kid. perv! :smile:
     
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    best and warmest wishes to you. there are alot of "us" here. reach out to us if you need to. rich.
     
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    I remember when I was a kid – well before puberty; maybe 9 or 10 – watching on TV an old re-run of the western show “Cheyenne Body” starring Clint Walker. There was an episode where Cheyenne was in some kind of serious trouble and was stripped to the waist with his hands tied back to a fence post. I recall being extremely titillated. From that point on, I knew what I liked sexually, although I don’t believe I really grasped the whole concept of being gay.

    Later, when I was 14, I went to summer camp with my Boy Scout troop. Lucky me, I was the one who got to share a tent with our senior patrol leader, who was 16 and good-looking. He was very interested in me, and it was my “first-time” experience. I knew from that point on that I was gay.
     
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    I had a lot of feelings of being very different from other kids in a way I really couldn't explain when I was in elementary school. I grew up in a very small town in a rural area, so I had no real exposure to gay people. I do remember hearing about it some on the news when I was about 9 or 10 as the AIDS epidemic was first making news. I didn't understand what the words "AIDS" or "homosexual" meant, but somehow deep inside I had this feeling that it somehow applied to me. As I got older, I never could understand why I didn't seem to have the feelings about girls that the other guys my age were experiencing and always talking about. At first I chalked it up to being a late bloomer, which I was. I started to question whether I might be gay when I was in high school when I noticed that I couldn't keep my eyes off the cuter guys in our school. I realized I looked at them the same way the girls did and it started to click. Unfortunately, it took many years before I was able to finally admit it to myself and learn to accept who I was. I finally started to come out when I was 24, and had my first relationship with another guy about a year later.

    Had I grown up in a family that was less uptight about talking about sex, or in a larger, more liberal community, it probably would have been a lot easier. However, I did eventually grow to appreciate, and love this aspect of who I am, and am generally a pretty happy and comfortable guy. I'm still single, and while I'd love to have a life partner to come home to, and maybe adopt a child or two with him and raise a family, the fact that I don't have those things yet doesn't keep me up at night worrying about it. I have faith the right guy will come along at the right time. Until then, I'm just happy being me, and enjoying the relationships I have with friends, plus the occassional friend with benefits. And when I look at all the kids I grew up with that taunted and teased me because I was different and didn't fit in, I can't help but pity them. My life is so much more exciting, and rich, than so many of theirs. I moved on, while they mostly stayed in our hometown. I've traveled all over the world, have an incredible career, and have experienced so many things. I'm not sure I would have had all of that had I been a straight country boy like most of them (not that there's anything wrong with that). It's just that being gay was, in part, one of the things that kept me focused on school and getting myself to a better position in life.
     
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    im the same as hrconsulttex, i grew up in a small town and it was never spoken of when i was growing up. I always noticed that they guys were talking about having sex with women and all their women bits and it didnt do anything for me. I never wanted to accept it, i tried to fight it, cos i was always taught that marriage was what would happen. My parents even now (they dont know yet) if they see gay people or a gay couple on tv they will half jokingly say how wrong it is or how sick it is, and i sorta just sit there and go hmm.

    But i accepted it a little over a year ago, when a guy i met online who lived a fair way away from me, showed me that i could fall in love with guys, cos i did, i think, lol, and from then on ive grown up alot and accepting of my gay ways.

    im still not fully comfortable with it, the one thing that scares me more than anything is that i will be alone cos i have been told gay relationships dont last, but i have friends who are in gay relationships one have been together for 3 years the other 4 so i hope i can make it work too.

    I can only hope me and my new bf are that lucky. :)

    Matt
     
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    First time I saw my stepdad naked and erect.
     
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    I was fairly sure I was bi around age 20.

    I knew I was straight on February 26, 2005.
     
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    7 years I guess, I really don't know, maybe earlier.

    I accept it at 13.

    And came out at 17.
     
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    I was about 5 or 6. I used to "play" with another guy a few months older than me.

    I came out in Junior year of high school. It was rough, but worth it.

    Still have issues occasionally, even after thirty years, but we all have issues of some kind or another.

    Husky
     
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    i knew i was gay back in grade school, but thought it was a phase i was going through. i married in my senior year. we had 3 kids. i came out 15 years later. am with my partner of 21 years now. my kids are fine with my lifestyle. still friends with the ex. what a story to write about someday!!!
     
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    Great thread. I was definitely straight then gay then bi at school and had some mutual masturbation with a friend I'd known all my life pretty much. I am terrified of homosexuality in myself, although I've been enthusiastically sharing about my feelings for and with a transvestite/transexual to be on a recent holidayI am married and absolutely LOVE great sex with women, and not just my wife I have to admit now because I got fed up with the sex but please don't judge me as we're cool and my spirituality is even cool with this as well as my emotional health and relationship. I am an exceptionally good land considerate lover for women and love whoring myself or just being very loving with them basically because I'm an attractive guy with my height. I'd like to say looks too, but not everyone thinks I'm Mr. good-looking at all. I have caused myself some health problems as a result before. I am not stimulated by sexual thoughts about men but occasionally feel attracted in what I would say is a non-sexual way, but it could be I am afraid of allowing the feelings to develop or become a sexual experience. One reason I forced myself to say a big NO to being gay was that my homosexual urges came out more when drunk and were at times predatory and I touched some boys aged 16 when I shouldn't have then felt unbelievably cringworthy and guilty, ashamed and self-hating as a result. I also found it hard to have relationships with any women (affectionate kind). My sex life is seasonal and I would like to sort it out because most of the time I just deal with my issues around sex by masturbating over lesbian porn which is unhealthy and addictive for me - not to mention a time waster. I don't feel anyone accepts me as much as gay men and enjoy being fancied, but it does not mean I am gay myself. Gay guys I love you. Thanks for accepting me despite the fact I don't accept "I'm gay." because frankly I'm just not. But I am accepting and open-minded. Friends, come be my friend.
     
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    When I was I three as I liked dolls and since my father was a chemist we had lots of make-up around which liked "applying" ...
     
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    I fell in love with my best friend when I was 5. He was the most beautiful creature I had seen in my whole life. It wasn't like instant, we met when we were three or four.

    Then I fell in love with Burt Lancaster when I saw him in a Sunday afternoon movie on TV, (The Crimson Pirate). I had an erection through the whole movie, even though I was a little kid.

    After that I fell in love with the boy nextdoor, who had the most beautiful eyelashes. He was more developed than my best friend. My family loved him, and he loved me.

    Well by this time I was eight or so.

    I did have recurring dreams of being with my father's friends naked (he, and his friends were in their early twenties), nothing sexual, just camping by my favourite river, with no clothes on. These dreams started when I was about four.

    Then there was the time I had an erection when we were all comparing sizes, but I was pretty sure I loved guys way before that, I didn't need my penis to tell me.

    It was some time after that that I realised I love ass,
    I'm kind of ass-sexual.:smile:

    I've always loved men really (all kinds), my sexuality is pretty much a natural extension of my friendships.
     
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    sence the day I was born................. but i waited till i was 18 to get me some man cock i think drinking was legal at that age back then :O)
     
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    I remember when I was in the fourth grade I went into the "big kids bathroom" and got this tingley feeling in my crotch when I saw an older kid pee'ing and he had hair around his dick. I also remember thinking how big his dick looked. That started me on my obsession with men's dicks.
     
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