It was a difficult thing for me when I was growing up. I would be laughed at and made fun of and ridiculed b/c of my size. Now in hindsight I see it was either due to jealousy or curiosity. That really scarred me and even now I constantly get asked to engage in SPH from guys who consider themselves to be small, but recalling how I felt when I was ridiculed I cannot bring myself to do it. When I was in HS during PE, not thinking about it I would dress out and shower like everyone else until I started noticing other boys starring at me, not saying anything but I could feel their eyes on my cock like a laser beam.
From that time on I showered in underwear or speedos, then I got laughed at for that so I stopped showering and you can imagine how welcomed I was in the next 3 classes of my day LOL !
The first time I got a blowjob was actually my first ever sexual encounter of any kind, I can't say my age since freedom of speech is not a liberty we have on this forum. I was enjoying that until I came and I had never even cum before ( VERY OVER PROTECTIVE CHRISTIAN FAMILY) so even though it felt amazing, I thought the guy had broke my dick and burst into tears. It wasn't until later that I learned how to recreate that myself in the tub and then shortly after learned to self-suck and then I started being able to enjoy my size.
It wasn't until I was with my 2nd gf and she said she wanted to have sex and had heard from friends about how huge I was and wanted to see before we had sex. I will never forget her eyes getting as big as saucers when she saw it.
Later that night on a very cold November night, right before my 19th Birthday we went to a local school and down the stairs into a basement with nothing but a blanket and the hard concrete floor, but nothing was harder than my HUGE young cock.
I was a virgin but she was not, I entered and she winced in pain, I was scared it was all over and I said I'm sorry. She said NO, give me a minute, dint put so much in. After about 15 minutes I was finally able to get it all in and started fucking her and she was screaming in pure pleasure. We were going at it for like 45mins to an hour and then she said you have to stop I cant take much more, you need to cum. I said I am close and blew my load in her, then collapsed on top of her.
Later after we had recovered we got up and she suddenly slapped me across the face, not hard but enough to feel it. I was like what the fuck is wrong with you ? She said that was for lying to me about being a virgin.... I said I WAS A virgin, it's the damn truth. She said virgins cant fuck that good, I said well maybe you never had a real dick before. She said yeah, that might be it, then laughed and we kissed before realizing the time and trying to get back before my mom and dad knew I was gone.
From that night on I learned to appreciate my size and she would brag to her friends and my friends but then it got to be too much, when friends were making remarks, though nothing cruel, just praise like. I was brought up very conservatively and didn't find it appropriate. I grew out of that as well and now have no issue with this at all .
I always knew I was BIG from an early age and it lead to tears at times, but I never knew how huge I was until I got a cam after a guy I met online took pictures of me when I was in College and he said I should get a cam and show that beast off.
So I bought a cam and when I saw myself live on cam as others would see me I have to say I got so turned on at seeing how huge my cock was, even though I had been told this many times by both men and women, I never saw what THEY saw and when I did I remember thinking GODDAMN I can see what all the fuss is about now, that's a Huge dick and almost instantly came on myself.
It's probably my most narcissistic moment of my life. :banana:
When SIZE became an issue for me sexually was like most people, after the first time I had a BIG dick, knowing how others felt having their mouths or ass full of cock & how satisfying it was. For me it was when I learned how much pleasure SIZE could give to someone and to myself.
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