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So here I am, just over four months later and nothing much has really change between my lost bronmance and I. I feel much better about the whole thing then I did initially and while I can safely say I have been through all five stages of grief, I am now left with only resentment and an emotional wound that won't easily heal.
When I think about everything that's happened, I'm still lost for words at how disposable I was to him. Even telling him I loved him like a brother meant nothing to him... when it meant the world to me.
I try hard to not dwell on it, to forgive, forget and move on, but I often find myself still drenched in anger at being abandoned and discarded by him, after he meant so much to me and after he protested that I also meant so much to him.
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What an utter c*nt.
It's beneath me to wish harm or vengence on him, but I do hope that one day, he feels remorse for what's happened between us and that it stings like a mother f*cking son of a bitch when her realises what he's lost by not having me in his life.
I'm still so very hurt. I just wish I would heal.
24 years since my bromance betrayed me, 16 years since our fight, and 5 years since our reunion dinner that ended up going nowhere, and it still hurts like Hell when I think about what happened. It always will. Whenever my mind starts going in the direction of thinking about what happened, I immediately tell myself to stop, let it go and move on. I count the blessings in my life and realize how truly fortunate I am. Karma catches up with everyone, so your bromance will eventually get what's coming to him. Sadly, I don't think you will ever completely heal. I know I won't. I also know that I will never feel that strongly about another guy again.
I have often wondered what I would do if I heard from him again. Truth of the matter is that too much shit has happened, and too much time has passed for things to ever be made right again between us. The past is the past. Nothing you can do will ever change it no matter how much you think about it. Reliving it in your mind always has the same shitty ending, so you just end up traumatizing yourself all over again. The more I talked about it with other people, the worse I felt, so I stopped talking about what happened. It's harder though to stop the thoughts from entering your head.
Here's a video that helped me deal with my anger towards my bromance and other close friends that betrayed me. I hope it helps you deal with your pain and gain some inner peace.
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