I hate talking to people, but I'm finding myself more alone with every month that passes. The need for companionship sucks. I'd say that I'm shy, except that I can talk to people I just seem to choose not to. I guess I'm more reserved than shy and I have a hard time letting people into my world. There are so many people that I'd just rather not talk to that when I find someone I'd like to get to know I can't find the words to say. I guess it's a confidence thing but I don't really know what I have to not be confident about. I'm not bad looking, I'm intelligent, I can make people laugh, I'm successful in most everything else I do... I'm just socially retarded, I don't read people well. That and people seem to have a tough time reading me. The only time I really meet people is through current friends, forced interactions, and when someone super out going forces their way into my life. I tend to find those people the most interesting in the end... Idk, I'm just kinda ranting because I don't have anyone else to tell this to. Feeling a little better for now.