Okay, I am 19 and going on 20 years old. I have had only one girlfriend my entire life, but it was only for a week and we didn't do anything. Yes, I am a virgin. I am extremely depressed about being a virgin! I know some of you will say that I shouldn't worry, that my time will come, but really, will it? I am sick and tired of being a virgin! I do not want to be a 20 year old virgin, which is coming up in December! I used to think that all I wanted was someone to hold...someone to love and cuddle with, which I do, BUT, when I thought about it harder, those things I can wait for later in life. Everyone can settle down in time and have a nice girl. What I want RIGHT NOW is someone who I am infatuated with and who I can have sex with. Don't get me wrong, a relationship would be nice too! But I seriously don't have any relationship experience, so I would settle with a sex-only girl, but not just a fuck buddy, someone who would teach me, help me, experiment with me...let me see the wild side! That's all I want...and THEN...then I will have the confidence to find a girl with whom I can have a seroious relationship with. I guess the reason I don't have a girlfriend is because I am not outgoing. I do not initiate conversations with girls and I do not call them even if I get their numbers. I guess it's my own damn fault for being a virgin. I feel like I need some sort of direction for every step of the way. How long could this last?? Till I'm finally laying in bed next to a girl? Currently, there is one girl who continues to pursue me through text messages. We were supposed to hang out a few times, but it never went through. She's bound to become UNinterested soon if I don't do something. She's doing all the work! How can I turn this girl into a mate? Is there anything I can say that will get her thinking sexually about me, and maybe be even more driven to get me? If anyone has any experience with this sort of thing, please help me. Right now, this girl who texts me I am considering my primary option for losing my virginity right now, as she is the one who most pursues me, and that makes me feel an attraction towards her. I didn't like her at first because she is much more outgoing than I am, but she's definately do-able! This is actually a very serious post, so help is appreciated!!