The simple fact that every time someone says something sincere and logical to you about this you double down and throw insults because you already believe that women are all the same, and are all to blame for your self-hate and loneliness shows me that you don't want actual help (which is what you need, and there's nothing wrong with that)... you want to express your anger and validate your feelings further in order to justify your words/actions.
It's fucking dangerous.
It's fucking dangerous.