I know from friends and family who are gay, most are quite happy, but I do have a few who lament over not being able to express themselves as they are not attracted to other gay men. This can be very frustrating, I myself couldn't imagine not being able to enjoy a sexy younger man who I find attractive, and when I discuss the issues of my gay friends with them and how they feel about it, the angst and depression can be overwhelming to them. I do my best to help them overcome society's unfortunate view of gay men and lend my support. It does help to join support groups where many discuss their issues and not just frequent gay bars where sex is the motivator. I do feel for your frustration, we live in a world where most say we are accepting and understanding and what one does in their bedroom should not define their whole life...but those who are closed minded will always be the majority, and we will need to deal with their morals as set upon us. Life is short, enjoy it, and never think changing is an option, you simply cannot flick that switch, rather...flick the switches you can control, and celebrate your individual unique self. We all are looking for happiness, and in a world where the grass seems greener on the other side, we don't realize the pain and heartache those around us may also be suffering. Good luck to you, I hope you find who you are in life, and allow yourself to be happy. PS, I saw your photos, and you are absolutely sexy as hell! If you were straight, I'd be doing everything I could to get you to come home with me young man!! WOW WHAT A BABE YOU ARE!!
CL