in a glum funk after a year of no sex, my world-wise, 21-years-older ex-boyfriend suggested that i might be able to find larger men online. he was slightly larger than average, but even he said he thought i could take much more, which mystified me. first time i logged on, though - drooling mouth, jaw agape. though i didn't know it when i signed up, i was in an awful mess of insecurity, and dialoguing and posting pictures, along with other methods, helped me gain some perspective on whether i really had an attractive body or not. so i stayed.

now when people see me sporadically online, i'm popping in again to mitigate sexual tension created by a dry spell, whether with a partner or not.