yes, thank you, it is still not easy to be going through this. I am content though with a sense of peace, not just the quiet in my home right now, as I am alone, but also the quiet that has come from finally putting the weight of this frustration on the ground, from laying down all the weapons and realizing there is nothing ever to win or to gain but always we must face loss. It is how we handle this that might be the biggest challenge.
I haven't ventured out of the Etc. threads much lately, but I'm glad I found this thread.
I think sexual compatibility is crucial to a healthy relationship. Wild Honey posted that men and women often view sexuality through different lenses, which is important to note, but if you want sex significantly more than your partner, it's going to cause resentments on both sides. I can't see that as being something that will just work itself out.
For me, not having a full-time relationship, sex is more "catch as catch can", so even thinking about having regular sex several times a day seems like a rare treat I've never had. I don't think I could have the kind of sex I like to have that often, because I like very long sessions that leave me feeling completely exhausted. Maybe that's because I know I have to store up for several days, or longer. It usually takes women longer to get off, so maybe frequent sex isn't as important to us as GOOD sex, which is harder to come by.
Also, there's nothing wrong with masturbation even while you're in a relationship, but I'm not suggesting that as an answer to very unequal needs. Once people start having sex, not because they want it, but just because they're trying to please their partner, I think the handwriting's on the wall. These are good things to talk about when a relationship is new, so you don't get deep into something that has very little chance of providing you with what you need.
Haha, if I was going to fuck a guy three or four times a day for several hours at a time, I wouldn't be able to hold down a job!