this is quite long!please bare with me
to set the scene ( dont know where to start)...in 2006 i realised i was basically in love with my best friends sister (he was ok with it). she was seeing someone at the time. I couldn't hold it in and let her know how i felt, non verbally (text, email). she broke up with her man and on a night out we kissed (very drunk but both wanted it). then out of nowhere she changed her mind during THAT night. stomped! i thought this was the beginning of something special. Anyway follows rejection and that she loves me platonically. i went away for the summer she said she missed me and what not but got angry at me when i misconstrued it as her wanting to be with me. probably the most painful year in my life as unrequited love really hurt me.
so fast forward 5 years. I remained in proximity to her since best friends with her brother. however I did not actually see her for long periods, only in the summers and stuff. Eventually got over her. found a new girlfriend, managed to fall for her, but unfortunately had to part ways.
summer 2011, basically living together and have a relationship that is somewhat tense at times and is incredible at others. at this point im fine im still over her. then comes a week where its just us two hanging out all the time. She made me take photos of her in clothes that she wanted to sell. skimpiest outfits and im suppressing an erection. I couldnt hold back and caressed her stomach and hip bum area. She called me weird? Anyway i became so intensely horrifically nauseatingly attracted her and everything that i had put behind me came right back around crashing down on me! I told her again non verbally ( i know pussy right) and got rejected again. Now im so hung up about it. shes also leaving for 9 months to work abroad ( so timings was off to drop the bomb)
Your help is to let me know what is it that i have to do and can you give me an insight into how shes feeling. She found me attractive before why not now again?? or just general view into this sad little story that i call my life
any help would be much appreciated, thanks in advance
to set the scene ( dont know where to start)...in 2006 i realised i was basically in love with my best friends sister (he was ok with it). she was seeing someone at the time. I couldn't hold it in and let her know how i felt, non verbally (text, email). she broke up with her man and on a night out we kissed (very drunk but both wanted it). then out of nowhere she changed her mind during THAT night. stomped! i thought this was the beginning of something special. Anyway follows rejection and that she loves me platonically. i went away for the summer she said she missed me and what not but got angry at me when i misconstrued it as her wanting to be with me. probably the most painful year in my life as unrequited love really hurt me.
so fast forward 5 years. I remained in proximity to her since best friends with her brother. however I did not actually see her for long periods, only in the summers and stuff. Eventually got over her. found a new girlfriend, managed to fall for her, but unfortunately had to part ways.
summer 2011, basically living together and have a relationship that is somewhat tense at times and is incredible at others. at this point im fine im still over her. then comes a week where its just us two hanging out all the time. She made me take photos of her in clothes that she wanted to sell. skimpiest outfits and im suppressing an erection. I couldnt hold back and caressed her stomach and hip bum area. She called me weird? Anyway i became so intensely horrifically nauseatingly attracted her and everything that i had put behind me came right back around crashing down on me! I told her again non verbally ( i know pussy right) and got rejected again. Now im so hung up about it. shes also leaving for 9 months to work abroad ( so timings was off to drop the bomb)
Your help is to let me know what is it that i have to do and can you give me an insight into how shes feeling. She found me attractive before why not now again?? or just general view into this sad little story that i call my life
any help would be much appreciated, thanks in advance