Hi everyone. I've been a member here for a short while. I don't post much. I mainly read the threads and move on. This morning I have a question. It has bugged me for almost 10 years now. That's when it all started, 10 years ago, when I started looking at nude men a lot on the internet. My wife and I had then (10 years ago and the years in between) and still do have great sex. The still do part just started back recently. As I haven't felt for a long while that I was good in bed, even though for the longest time I always felt that I was. I know I please her, no doubt in my mind. I think I know how to fuck , seriously, maybe it's just my ego talking, but she cums multiple times, every single time we have sex. I've been with her 18 years total. The first 8 years no porn or attraction to men. The past 10 I've been mesmerized by bigger dicks. I've even opened up to her about my being bisexual. It was uncomfortable for her at first, but since I don't go off and act on it no more than once every few months she has gotten used to it, or learned to live with it. She really seems okay with it though. She knows I am only interested in giving head, which I am. I go off with a guy from time to time, give him head and that's it. Okay, don't want to get off topic. I'm 38, 6 inches cut and not even sure about girth, never measured it. I do know that I cannot get it into a toilet paper roll *LOL* I am the only guy she has ever had sex with. Guaranteed! She cums over and over when we have sex. She loves my dick, likes to touch it, stroke it, suck it, ride it and all that good shit. We always talk about the size. I bring it up constantly. She says it's perfect. She is happy and needs nothing more. How can she say this? She has never had anything else to compare it to. She's looked at porn with me, dick pics and all, but still says she likes mine better. She can't be certain that mine is the best. She's never had another. I'm not even sure my subject makes any sense. I'm glad she's happy with me, but it bugs the hell out of me that she might be happier with a bigger dick. I've even asked her to go off with other men. She want do it, and I'm glad, but the thought is always still there. The problem is me. She's happy, I know that, but how can I ever get past the fact that she could and probably would in my mind be happier with a bigger dick, if this was just all sexual, no marriage, friendship, kids and all that. Purely sexual, I just wonder if she fucked someone else, would our relationship ever be the same, or would she always think back to the guy who had a bigger dick than I do. I'm at a loss for words now. I probably made no sense. What do you all think? Is she happy with me because we've been together almost 20 years, have a family, kids, loves me for the person that I am, and thinks my dick is perfect, sex is perfect, because she hasn't had another. Do you think I with 6 inches can please her just as good as a guy with say 8 inches? I've never had a problem, NEVER at pleasing her. I cum once, she cums like 4-7 times everytime. I can go for a long time, and am always more concerned with her being pleased. It's just for the past 10 years I've wished day after day that I had a bigger dick. I'm stuck with what I have. I'm just not happy with it. Maybe one of you can make sense of everything I just posted and answer. I don't even know what I am trying to ask/say anymore.