Okay you were right, especially Hazel God. He is very wise. She treats me like shit; no better than a dog! She came here on Saturday, we went out. She liked to "tease" me about the supposedly hot guys (though none are hotter than I :wink
yet I was not allowed to look at the barmaids.
To be honest we did have a chat and she said it was the most open I've been with her...we discussed her behaviour eg being very cold and distant with me in the mornings. We did speculate that maybe she felt guilty about having sex with me and she said that it was because I was too nice to her (!?).
Note: Maybe I'm crazy but if I have someone in my bed I like to talk to them and kiss them. If I have to lay there in silence then I play things over in my head which honestly feels like a death every time it happens. She has different views on what sharing a bed is.
Well the next morning was no different. She left early. FYI I/we woke up at 6:45am (I never sleep easy next to her). Strangely I played it a little aloof and she text me I suspect as soon as she arrived home saying she had a lovely night and that she felt better that morning than the others (only marginally).
Now perhaps that would seem like a breakthrough. The problem is that today I text her asking how she was and got no reply. Not ALL DAY. Everyone has a spare 60 seconds to write a text message. Even "fuck off" is better than nothing. So that was that. I let it slide. Then it gets to 9.30pm and I decide to ring her for a chat. She doesn't answer. Now as trivial as this may seem, she deleted my comment from Facebook. That is not my concern though. My concern is that she is trying to hide the fact that she has been seeing me from 'someone'.
Now I happen to remember she said she was going to see her ex tonight. And I surmise that she is at his house tonight. I could perhaps send a message to her ex and let him know how she is deceptive. Although maybe its just me she treats this way...and that isn't really my style.
Anyway my point is: she doesn't care about me so why should I care about her. I'm not even "in love" with her; I'm in love with Dulcinea; a woman who does not exist and will never exist within the body of 'her'.
Tonight I have deleted all her texts and her phone number from my phone. So even if I wanted to phone her or text her, I couldn't. Also deleted her as a 'friend' on Facebook. I spent a lot of time...too much time, wishing she would be someone she isn't and I let a lot of her deceptive and cruel behaviour go in the idle hope that maybe she would change. She never has and she probably never will.
And since I know she'll read this: the sex was shit and the reason I couldn't cum was because...the sex was shit :tongue:
PS I'm going on 'hiatus'. I have things to sort out. I'm being frugle and saving up and got various projects to work on. If you see me back on here: shoot me!
PPS: Thanks for the comment Not Punny (in the last thread) - you're a sexy scalliwag yourself.
yet I was not allowed to look at the barmaids.To be honest we did have a chat and she said it was the most open I've been with her...we discussed her behaviour eg being very cold and distant with me in the mornings. We did speculate that maybe she felt guilty about having sex with me and she said that it was because I was too nice to her (!?).
Note: Maybe I'm crazy but if I have someone in my bed I like to talk to them and kiss them. If I have to lay there in silence then I play things over in my head which honestly feels like a death every time it happens. She has different views on what sharing a bed is.
Well the next morning was no different. She left early. FYI I/we woke up at 6:45am (I never sleep easy next to her). Strangely I played it a little aloof and she text me I suspect as soon as she arrived home saying she had a lovely night and that she felt better that morning than the others (only marginally).
Now perhaps that would seem like a breakthrough. The problem is that today I text her asking how she was and got no reply. Not ALL DAY. Everyone has a spare 60 seconds to write a text message. Even "fuck off" is better than nothing. So that was that. I let it slide. Then it gets to 9.30pm and I decide to ring her for a chat. She doesn't answer. Now as trivial as this may seem, she deleted my comment from Facebook. That is not my concern though. My concern is that she is trying to hide the fact that she has been seeing me from 'someone'.
Now I happen to remember she said she was going to see her ex tonight. And I surmise that she is at his house tonight. I could perhaps send a message to her ex and let him know how she is deceptive. Although maybe its just me she treats this way...and that isn't really my style.
Anyway my point is: she doesn't care about me so why should I care about her. I'm not even "in love" with her; I'm in love with Dulcinea; a woman who does not exist and will never exist within the body of 'her'.
Tonight I have deleted all her texts and her phone number from my phone. So even if I wanted to phone her or text her, I couldn't. Also deleted her as a 'friend' on Facebook. I spent a lot of time...too much time, wishing she would be someone she isn't and I let a lot of her deceptive and cruel behaviour go in the idle hope that maybe she would change. She never has and she probably never will.
And since I know she'll read this: the sex was shit and the reason I couldn't cum was because...the sex was shit :tongue:
PS I'm going on 'hiatus'. I have things to sort out. I'm being frugle and saving up and got various projects to work on. If you see me back on here: shoot me!
PPS: Thanks for the comment Not Punny (in the last thread) - you're a sexy scalliwag yourself.
