You are a cute guy, and will make some lucky guy very happy one day. :smile:
I'm not a young guy anymore, but I played one several years ago, and I completely understand all of the reasons for not broadcasting your sexual preference to everyone in your world. For some reasons that can be a good strategy.
But...for other reasons, it can be harmful too. Picture it, Boston. I was in grad school and I had was a couple of weeks into my first same-sex relationship. One evening I was having a night out with my school friends. We boarded the Green Line in Back Bay on our way downtown to Quincy Market, we were all self-absorbed in our own little world laughing and having a good time, when I noticed the guy I was seeing sitting alone on the other side of the subway car. He was on his way to have dinner with friends in the North End and looked over grinning at the irony that we would be on the same train and sincerely happy to see me. I froze. I was in the closet and I didn't want him to blow my cover, so I looked away and ignored him. I didn't know what else to do.
Later I learned that by the time he got to his friends house, he was crying because for the first time, I made him feel like he was a bad person for being gay. His friends, lesbians, wanted him to break up with me, but he had another friend who talked him out of it. I apologized profusely, the last thing I wanted to do was make him feel bad for being him...but that's exactly what I did. My negative feelings had rubbed off on him. My closet was hurting my ability to have a healthy relationship. I still cringe when I think of what I did.
Fast forward to other boyfriends, and the family gatherings, holidays and parties that you feel like you can't acknowledge your partner for fear of being outed as gay. Do you drag your partner along with you to Christmas? If so, how do you explain him? Or do you make it easier on yourself and tell your partner to just stay at home? And if so, how cool is it to leave your partner at home during the most important times of your life?
It tends to get very complicated very quickly. Yes its hard to "come out" to friends and family sometimes. On the other hand, are you doing whats best for yourself by keeping a barrier between you and future partners by not being honest about who you are?
So...I'm not going to tell
anyone to "come out" if they aren't ready. Do that at your own pace. But please be
aware that when you find that incredibly cute, smart, sexy, clever, sexy, cool, awesome guy that you have always been looking for, don't put yourself in the situation like I did in which you hurt him, or leave him alone at home on Christmas, or ignore him out in public. That's just tragic and will result in loneliness (and typing out your life experiences in threads on message boards
).