Hello all. I am a long time reader here...this is actually my second post (old user name got deleted do to dormancy, lol). I will warn that this is going to be a long post, so if you are looking for a quicke don't look here. I realize this is a group for large penises, and technically I don't fit that description (6.5x5 if you're curious) but I feel that there are alot of intelligent people on this board and that it is as good a place as any to ask my question. First some background: I am quite young (19) and in college (University of Michigan). I do not consider myself to be a typical student or 19 year old for that matter. I do not like parties, or the typical club scene that most of my peers seem to crave. I am a virgin (I am told a rare find these days, more on this later), and I enjoy things that many in my age group view as being boring or not worth their time (classical music, quality wines, fine cigars- of course in moderation due to $$$ or lack of). I have found this to be somewhat of a problem in the social areana, I do have friends but they are difficult to come by. For the most part I am happy with my life. I get excellent grades, I have a family that loves and supports me, I know what I want to do once I graduate (law), I have hobbies that I enjoy (wieghtlifting, reading, tutoring, public speaking), and I have a loyal circle of friends that I care about. I really don't have much to complain about in the longterm. However, I am truely conflicted on the issue of my sexuality. Not in the traditional sense mind you (see sig) I know I am attracted to women. As I said, I am a virgin, but I have a VERY high sex drive (we're talking 5+ jerk offs everday, I really don't know how I find the time to maintain my GPA). I have reached the point where I really want and am inetersted in sex with a woman, the problem is I cannot stomach the idea of an ONS (I am attracted to women on a more intellectual and emotional basis anyway, ONS is about purely pyshical attraction)... yet I wonder if a) I have the time for an RL, b) if I could even find a girl to engage in one with, and c) if it is worth it at this point in my life. I guess what I am asking is, what are your experiances in this realm (especially more mature posters) and do you have any advice for me in this area, do you think it is even a good idea for me to focus on soemthing like this now? My main worry is that I will look back on my youth years from now and regret that I essentially sat out on the sidelines. I admittadly have ambitious goals (I want to go to Harvard Law School or the equivilant) and can't see changing them anytime soon. Finding the time for an Rl will be difficult, though not impossiable. Do you think it would hurt me later to wait it out now is essentially what I am asking. Also, do you think I am right to think that an ONS would be disasterous for an individual like me? I am happy to give more information if desired, and I appreciate you guys taking time to advise the young and foolish.