Being a skeptic and of a scientific mind, i totally believe in God.
I do not and i'll repeat it as i mean it, do not, believe in the hokum, humbo gumbo bollocks of the man made constructed so called organised religions.
Christianity, Judaism, Islam... is all hypocritical shit, designed to keep the lowly masses obedient, the rich privalidged and women in the kitchen or the bed. At best they can be described as a set of basic (out dated) guide lines for life. Nothing more.
Religions are intended to guide mankind but all too aften they blind mankind to whole purpose they were intended for. Which is peace and harmony with ones self, those around us and the world we live in.
No one needs to be in a specific building to be close to God. No one needs some backwards shit peddling middle man, no matter how good their intentions, to be closer to God.
I would say i have a very personal, one to one relationship with God. He/She has always been there for me in my deepest darkest hours of need. No, i dont hear voices before you start and neither did God give me the lottery numbers. It's not that black and white.
Theres an old addage, for those that believe, no proof is needed, for those who dont, no proof will do. Its kinda true, you can be given an idea of who or what God is but you have to find him/her, whatever, by yourself to understand it.
It pisses me off who people think of God as some mean bastard picking on people. If your 4 year old son is hit by a car, news flash, God didnt kill him, the pissed up wanker driving did. If you contracted HEP C or something equally as nasty, God didnt give it to you, the dirty needle or blantant disregard for the condom did.
We blame God and scape goat him for all the wrong that may befall us in this world, espically when we cant face the fact that 50% of the time, it's our fellow man thats done something evil to us and the remaining 50% is our own shit timing, poor judgement, coindence, good old fashioned bad luck or just LIFE.
God to me, I guess, is simply acomplishment despite adversity. To have shit rain down on you every day, who dosent, and still give your only umbrella to someone else, cos you know what it like to be shit on, so you'd choose to spare someone else the greif. To be a victim, and we all are from time to time, but to rebuild ourselves, or to help rebuild those that need it and be more humaine, despite of our damages, or even because of them. Empathy, dignity, sympathy, courage and the witt not to be played as a sucker, lol... thats what bring us closer to God and it's through these i believe we hear the faintest echos of the divine.
I see God as a familiar if not distant friend. You cant call Him up to go for a beer or whime about your boyfriend to Him, but hes the quiet voice of reason keeping you calm when your arse is litterly on fire, the spark that gave you the unexpected currage to step in and intervien when everyone else is just watching, Hes the infitessimally small glimmer of hope that no matter how much pain we're in, someone else knows such pain too, that someone may help us when we need it most. If you're poor, you're poor, God aint gonna give you money. But God is the charity of your friends, family and strangers that bail you out, no matter how small. If you're tired, sad and hurting, God isnt an over the counter fix it all pill, Hes the oppertunity that we might look at ourselves and ask why and how we're like this, Hes the grace we show when we pick ourselves out of the shit, not the reason we are in the shit in the first place.
So what about serial killers i hear you ask, simply, fuck'em. Mankind chooses to kill. There are only three animals in the whole world that choose to war with each other, ants, chimps and man. If someone freely kills of no other reason or grounds than the sake of it, put the fuckers down.
Rant nearly over, i just gotta take a breath, lol
