The question I have for the OP concerns the view of most folks that one's conduct must always be in harmony with one's basic set of values (including one's sense of oneself as a sexual being.)
The early teens are the years in which, if we are lucky and have no adults in authority hindering our disocovery of ourselves as sexual beings. Our masturbation increasingly blends with what our society impresses on us with regard to the future of our sexuality.,
Let's face it: our society programs us to accept our destiny as husbands and our fantasy life includes seeing our growing cocks lodged in a girl's cunt.
However, I believe those males are most fortunate who ciscover as teens that some males are loving and lovable. In my case, I bonded in deep affection with the new guy in town and our relationship soon was such as made us want and need the sweet communion of sexual union .
THAT, MR. OP, WAS THE START OF A TWO YEAR RELATIONSHIP IN WHICH WE LEARNED BY DOING AND WE MANAGED TO DO JUST ABOUT EVERYTHING TWO HORNY, LOVING GUYS CAN DO TOGETHER SEXUALLY. WE NEVER STOPPED THINKING OF OURSELVES AS 'REGULAR GUYS' AND THE SEX ENDED AT GRADUATION FROM HIGH SCHOOL AND WE BOTH EVENTUALLY ENTERED INTO VERY HAPPY MARRIAGES.
The beauty of it all was that even today we remember our sexual relationship as simply "doing what comes naturally." No one was hurt. I loved him before we ever had sex----and, I love him still.
P.S. the large print is an accommodation to my failing eyesight;
