I'm so gay when i masturbate.

[DACinit]

I love to masturbate. Always have. In the last 20 years of my life I've looked at trans porn. In the last 30+ years I've used dildos. All of my able life I've liked wearing women's underwear while I do. I fantasize about women, men, shemales....getting anal, giving head, getting gangbanged, humiliated, having my wife catch me dressed like a woman getting fucked, having my wife peg me in front of friends, lots of big cocks, cross-dressing, anal sex...etc., etc..

Now, I know a lot of these fantasies come from the porn I like to watch and I find it all exciting and perfectly normal. I sometimes get off, more and more lately, while admitting I'm gay or a sissy or other non regular/ "dirty" things.

Here's the thing, though. I believe it;s completely a fantasy and when I am out in the world I never check out guys. I always gravitate to the women. I love everything about women and I don;t find men attractive or sexy in any way besides within my fantasies. and even in my fantasies I don;t find them attractive, I just want to be getting fucked, sometimes my multiple men, shemales, sissies, etc......

See what I'm getting at here? I'm gay in my fantasies only. I have no desire to be with men, although when I get horny I think about finding a glory hole or some other filthy outlet. Ideally my wife would be there getting off on watching or encouraging me.

Fantasies....

My question is, are there other guys who do this? Can someone only be gay in their fantasies?

I would consider myself bisexual but I would have no idea whether that were true. I wouldn't have a problem with being gay or bi, except that I wouldn't want to lose my wife and life we have together. I just see this all as my sexuality and am fine with having these fantasies. I really just wonder if other guys do these things as well

thanks

 

[DACinit]

maybe I'm just a freak with a really dirty mind and too much time

 

[binjguy]

Add in some cuckold fantasy and this is pretty much me except I have had a few bi experiences in the past. Doesn't happen often and last time was a long time ago.

 

[DACinit]

interesting. Not so much cuckold stuff with me, although I have fantasized about this and found it enjoyable. More forced bi, forced gay stuff. taking me to a gloryhole or inviting men over to fuck me while she laughs and tells me to suck cock or take it in the ass, while she gets fucked herself...maybe that;s the same thing?

 

[binjguy]

interesting. Not so much cuckold stuff with me, although I have fantasized about this and found it enjoyable. More forced bi, forced gay stuff. taking me to a gloryhole or inviting men over to fuck me while she laughs and tells me to suck cock or take it in the ass, while she gets fucked herself...maybe that;s the same thing?

Close enough!!

 

[DACinit]

I think it's the porn these days. Everything leads to trans or sissy porn, there's so much of it. I don't think I fantasized about this stuff before the internet. I did take to it as soon as I found it, though.

I will say that this is nearly my entire sex life as my wife rarely feels sexy due to medications. So, I've let myself indulge quite a bit

 

[Mister2101]

You need to try out sex with another man.......in what ever manner or form you think best. Your inhibitions may be holding you back.........sex with a man can be so overwhelmingly good.........you owe it to your self. Find a considerate, caring gay man who is willing to take his time with you and introduce you to the physical and emotional pleasure of gay sex......you won't be disappointed....and your fantasies can become very real.....peace.

 

[DACinit]

perhaps this is true. I do not feel any emotion toward men like love or attraction or tenderness, etc..., I do not enjoy kissing or caressing men, though. I know the idea is, give it a chance and let yourself feel it. Not for me.

that said, a really big dick in the ass and mouth seems like a really fun idea, frankly speaking.

maybe I'm just, as someone has pointed out, just not ready. perhaps that is true. I do enjoy being straight.

 

[DACinit]

thanks for engaging me on this question. I think I should also post it in Ask a Straight Man......

 

[Mister2101]

thanks for engaging me on this question. I think I should also post it in Ask a Straight Man......

I think you will be disappointed in your responses from that group. just saying.

 

[deleted1281236]

Are you saying that if I was all turned on and naked in front of you in real life that you wouldn't have sex with me?

 

[bi2]

Now, I know a lot of these fantasies come from the porn I like to watch and I find it all exciting and perfectly normal. I sometimes get off, more and more lately, while admitting I'm gay or a sissy or other non regular/ "dirty" things.

Youre not alone, I have similar fantasies too that you stated which I enjoy. This is a bi forum, the way you act and feel is totally acceptable.

If you feel like taking the next step, do so at the right time and pace when you are ready and do only what you are comfortable to do.

 

[sissyjanine]

I love to jack off too....and over the years my porn has gone from straight porn to exclusively gay porn....pussy doesn't even get me hard anymore...so just cock for me!

 

[goldscorpguy]

My question is, are there other guys who do this? Can someone only be gay in their fantasies?

The great thing about fantasies is that we can all have them and they hurt no-one. If it suits you to have these thoughts while you masturbate but never act them out in the real world, then that is your decision and yours alone. Sometimes we have the opportunity to live out a fantasy and it's that kind of 'sliding door' moment where, if you step through, it can change everything. I did just that over 15 years ago, and don't regret it in the slightest. I took a risk and it paid off. Trust your instincts.