ok so, let's see where do i start. i guess the main reason i'm on here is that i am a girth queen and the guy i really love having sex with doesn't want to do it with me anymore. he says he's not opposed to the idea but the way i act scares him. he has like the perfect cock for me. and he is better than anyone else i've ever had at going down. he is attractive to me, the bad boy type or whatever. and he is one of the very few people that hang out with me. so ok, here's the other part. i like to go fast. i have been doing that since 2000. i have a job and an apartment and i don't EVER steal anything. whatever. judge away. but he also goes fast with me sometimes. i feel totally hopeless. i don't want to quit, and i miss fucking him so much. and whenever i do it with other people, it only reminds me how much i miss him. i am sick of trying, sick of everything. idk. i don't even know what i'm asking.
PS. update - and now, 2 years later, things have only gotten worse. i still have my place and my job and my two cats and my two curses. well, maybe 3 now, i may have picked up another habit thinking it would help. i have also banged my head on the wall thinking that might help. it didn't.
PS. update - and now, 2 years later, things have only gotten worse. i still have my place and my job and my two cats and my two curses. well, maybe 3 now, i may have picked up another habit thinking it would help. i have also banged my head on the wall thinking that might help. it didn't.
